Tuesday, May 18, 2010
For the last couple of weeks I have been writing blogs of my progress and that feels great. I have enjoyed watching the changes and being dead center and in control of my own life, my choices and being successful.
A fellow sparker (we talk offline sometimes) asked me, so what is next. What are you goals now? And I actually had to stop. I don't have any. I mean I have goals to stay consistent but I think the answer she was looking for was something that was measurable like in inches or pounds. And well i don't really have any. As I thought about it some more I though -- maybe I do want to loss some more inches, but again I could not be specific.
So i must admit it has been kind of making me think. What am I doing this for if I do not have measurable goals?Than the answer hit me and it was a sincere feeling of how I truly feel. I do this for my health, yes and because I enjoy it. It makes me feel good. Having a powerful workout and sticking to my plan works for me and it makes me happy. That is it - I want to be happy. Regardless of what the scale says, regardless if I had a cheat and my body is holding on to water. That is what I want to be happy.
It seems like such a easier answer and it was in front if me all along. I mean, I know we all want to be happy and many times it goes beyond whether we can fit into a size 2 or a size 20. We need to be happy with ourselves and our progress. Be happy with what we have accomplished even if we are not where we want to be or even know where that place is.
I want to be happy outside of how I look, because myself worth is not based on how I look, not how many hours I spend at the gym but how I treat others, how I treat myself and how I live life.
So for anyone reading this blog - life and happiness or self worth is not a numbers game. It is not about the amount of calories you consume, it is not about what number is on the scale it is when you can truly look in the mirror and just be. Look into the mirror and believe you are a good person, you have a good heart and your intentions are pure. It is when you can give something to someone and not expect anything in return.
I found that once I started pushing out the negative and thinking of the positive aspects of my life and me did I truly start enjoying this process. It was about learning about food and how it fuels my body, it was about enjoying the gym and sharing my experiences with others, it was just about embracing a healthier lifestyle.
I enjoy blogging about my progress but it feels almost empty when I can not share all the other aspects outside of what the scale or the tape measures says. So my goal: Continue to live, continue to embrace positive thoughts and to be happy.
What makes you happy?