Broken record found....
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
I have this ability to talk myself out of a happy place. I will be blissfully married 8 months on Saturday. God has brought this amazing man into my life and I intend to hold on to him forever. So why am I not happy? 95% of the time I am carefree, happy go lucky, not much upsets me. The other 5% -- watch out. I walk on my lip, feel sorry for myself, don't exercise, and generally remain silent. This is NOT healthy.
I know what causes this so why don't I CHANGE MY BEHAVIOR? I am lazy. I am gung-ho about something for months on end and then WHAM. It's over. I hate to exercise but it's all I think about. Things that I can do to help myself be healthier. I am a walking library. I have books, magazines, articles that I print out, exercises I find online, meal plans, I cruise spark pages like a stalker looking for the secrets (LOL) etc etc etc. but I lack one serious quality ..... MOTIVATION. I can make every excuse in the book .... SO JUST DO IT ALREADY.
My 5% needs to join the other 95% PRONTO!