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Why Can't I be Happy with what I've Achieved?

Monday, May 17, 2010

I NEED TO VENT!!! Looking in the mirror I honestly think I look worse than when I started two months ago. I started running as a way to lose weight (using the C25k program) and due to probably an increase in muscle (albeit small) I actually look bigger. At first I lost a couple of inches, but according to my tape measure, they're mostly back. I'm on the last week of the program (week 9) and I can run a 5k, so why don't I feel happier about it?? emoticon

My goal was to lose weight slowly so I haven't cut back calories drastically. At first I thought I wasn't losing weight because I wasn't eating enough, but then adjusting calorie intake didn't work.

I'm now up to running almost 4 miles every other day! My speed is ~10.5 min/mile. Not speedy, but hardly turtle-ish either. Why am I not losing weight? I have an extremely high amount of body fat. Why isn't it budging??

My diet currently is 1700-1900 calories per day (35 minute runs & 30 minutes walking). Weight lifting on my non-running days. I guess I need less calories. But, if I cut back my runs will suffer. I guess I'm now stuck with the choice of either going on a stricter diet and giving up my runs or staying fat and running.

Something struck me when I was out for a run today. I used to think that all runners were skinny BECAUSE they ran. However, maybe they were just skinny to begin with. I saw a couple of female runners who were chubby, but had firm legs like they'd been running for awhile. If they run so much, why are they still chubby?? emoticon

Thanks for making it through my vent.
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  • KITTIWAKES
    Thanks for the comment Jess! I've always been a fat-thin person. I have over 25% body fat and am considered overweight for my frame. About 10 lbs ago my doctor actually mentioned to me I should lose some weight when I complained about being chronically tired. Now that I've lost 10 lbs I feel better, but still have too much fat.

    My sister is my same height and she is 25 pounds lighter than me and considered in better health. However, she too has a higher % of body fat than she should so I realize part of it is genetic.

    However, I've been working out really hard and eating well. There's no reason why I should have this much fat. If you see me clothed I look okay because I've learned how to hide it.

    I'm just SO frustrated because I thought that running would be a "miracle cure" of sorts. I didn't think it would be possible to run so much and still be fat.
    3709 days ago
  • JESSSPARK
    You look pretty awesome in your pictures.. You said your goal was to change fat for muscles. That looks like a huge SUCCEED to me. You don't say how tall you are so it's hard to gauge whether dropping more weight would be a good or a bad thing. If you are 5'2" then yes I'd look at recalibrating my calories more to like 1500 to 1700. If you are taller, then given your muscle you may be at a good weight for your height given your athleticism.

    Maybe you should spring to get a body fat test done, that could tell you whether you are carrying too much extra fat?
    3709 days ago
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