Why Can't I be Happy with what I've Achieved?
Monday, May 17, 2010
I NEED TO VENT!!! Looking in the mirror I honestly think I look worse than when I started two months ago. I started running as a way to lose weight (using the C25k program) and due to probably an increase in muscle (albeit small) I actually look bigger. At first I lost a couple of inches, but according to my tape measure, they're mostly back. I'm on the last week of the program (week 9) and I can run a 5k, so why don't I feel happier about it??
My goal was to lose weight slowly so I haven't cut back calories drastically. At first I thought I wasn't losing weight because I wasn't eating enough, but then adjusting calorie intake didn't work.
I'm now up to running almost 4 miles every other day! My speed is ~10.5 min/mile. Not speedy, but hardly turtle-ish either. Why am I not losing weight? I have an extremely high amount of body fat. Why isn't it budging??
My diet currently is 1700-1900 calories per day (35 minute runs & 30 minutes walking). Weight lifting on my non-running days. I guess I need less calories. But, if I cut back my runs will suffer. I guess I'm now stuck with the choice of either going on a stricter diet and giving up my runs or staying fat and running.
Something struck me when I was out for a run today. I used to think that all runners were skinny BECAUSE they ran. However, maybe they were just skinny to begin with. I saw a couple of female runners who were chubby, but had firm legs like they'd been running for awhile. If they run so much, why are they still chubby??
Thanks for making it through my vent.