Wednesday, May 12, 2010
I have had nothing but rain and low temps here in PA would be nice to get some nice weather while I was here. I may go home on Monday, I do not want to wear out my welcome. I did get to do 60 min on treadmill yesterday and the weights and she has a bowflex I tried to use. I miss the gym. I still am in shock ladies I can wear a size 9 jeans I just cannot believe it. I am in fear though I have no idea what my weight it and that still scares me. I have had my share of sweets for once on this vacation, but Cathy just wants me to enjoy myself and thinks I am too strict. I just think the sugar will become an addiction again and I will want it more?? Anyone else have the fears of gaining it back when you do have empty garbage foods for the enjoyment?
I really want to get back on my schedule I feel like a traitor when I am not. I do not want to live in fear to eat either, so it is perplexing for me.