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Sunday, May 09, 2010

Am I the only one who loses motivation? I've been able to maintain the weight I have lost (a whole 5 lbs but at least its something). I'm having the hardest time doing the exersizing. It shouldn't be the hardest thing to do. But it is. I love the club we have a membership to. But...its a club and I usually feel really dumb and pathetic when I go. I don't have any idea what to do other than use the treadmill and the swimming pool. And I am the type of person that I need someone to explain to me what I should do, how many reps etc or I will just flounder. I don't like being this overweight. I generally feel disgusted. Why is it so hard???
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  • LOZUKE
    I know how you feel I am so bad with figuring out how to work things and then you feel you look stupid. There may be someone at the desk can help you to find someone there to show you the equipment. You might have to pay for a trainer, but it may be worth it., that is what I did and then I got comfortable Just asking people next to me. emoticon I know you can it will get easier. emoticon emoticon emoticon Debbie
    3743 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/10/2010 6:39:24 AM
  • FAIRYCELTIC
    This is the reason I stay on SparkPeople. Thank you everyone who posted.

    All I can do is continue forward. I never said I would do it all in one day. But I get tired of the struggle. It wasn't a struggle to put the weight on, why does it have to be a struggle to take it off. I know this isn't the way my body was meant to be. I have a little idea of what it is supposed to be, and I can see it when I look in the mirror (superimposed over the current, true image of me). But I can't imagine what it would be like living in that body. I just can't see it. I don't know what a thinner person feels like anymore. I have so much emotion locked up in my fat. It scares me to lose the weight because it will mean I have to find a new way to deal with my emotions. Whether its past emotions (of my divorce, adoption, teenage years, self worth, whatever) or dealing with newer challenges of work environment and somewhat of a lack of focus and drive...my body weight is connected to my emotions. My weight is my wall of protection. I have always been told I was overweight. It was a total shock to look back at pictures of me in high school and realize that I wasn't obese until my mid to late 20's. I wish I was that 120 lb girl in high school. She was beautiful. She's somewhere locked inside of me, aching to get out to show the world "See! I'm beautiful both inside and out!

    I never stop wanting to lose the weight. I just go through periods that lack motivation. Its too easy to fall off the wagon. Its so much harder to fall off the wagon, get back up on your feet, dust yourself off and get back on. I really wish I had a friend who was close enough (and more motivated) to help me. I don't have the money for a personal trainer. Believe me, I would love to work with one weekly if I had the extra money. Hmm...I need to think more on that. There has to be a a way to do it. I need someone who has more knowledge about exercise to help me get through this. The thin girl wants out! GRRRRR!
    3743 days ago
  • RISSASPIECES
    I think that we all face that sort of thing. Some days, I hate working out. Does your gym offer a personal trainer? Most will give you one free consultation at least. :-)
    3743 days ago
  • SILVERKNOT
    We all lose motivation at some point. The difference between the ones who succeed and the ones who don't is whether or not they keep plugging away. Weight loss is not about perfection, it is a journey that will be full of mistakes. The trick is to learn from them.

    If you have no idea what to do at the gym maybe buying a couple of sessions with a personal trainer will make your gym membership worth your time and money. You could also look at the exercises here on SP.
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    3743 days ago
  • KEEP-GOING
    No your not the only one who loses motivation. I am probably chief on that one. I agree with the others here tho. It does get into your blood but it takes a while. Walking is a natural thing to do. The pool is excellent, you know that . It eases up on the joints. One of the main things I think for us over eaters to watch for and fight is discouragement. If you are wise please don't allow this to keep you from your right to a healthy life style. This is going to take the rest of our lives one day at a time. We will have good and bad days. Get right back as fast as you can at what you know you need to do and go for those STREAKS of healthy . I will stop preaching now. Aim for at least 3 days a week. If you get more WOOT! But at least 3. HUGS
    3744 days ago
  • LITTLE_QUEEN
    I go through phases, Right now I am in a I don't wanna stage, Just try to make yourself do it, Are you bored with what you have been doing?
    3744 days ago
  • FOSTER1001
    I lost my motivation the end of Feb. when I came back from a cruise and hadn't reached my goal. Then my brother sent pictures that he had taken last month. I had no idea I still looked that bad. I had lost some weight before the cruise and didn't think I looked that bad. It re-motivated me, I have to lose. I feel totally intimated at clubs also but at least you go, and if all you do is swim and use the treadmill, that's still exercise!
    3744 days ago
  • NWLIFESRC
    Just start walking 10, 20, 30 min at a time you will lose weight and after a few weeks it gets into your blood and you miss it when you don't walk.
    3744 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5178852
    It just is!

    Journal these feelings so that you can look back at what you have overcome. You WILL get past this challenge--- think of what is at stake. (Your health)

    In your corner,
    Karen
    3744 days ago
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