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*Big Sigh*

Saturday, April 10, 2010

I feel...a bit overwhelmed with life. I've been so emotional and moody for weeks and it's confused me. The past couple days have been better, except for the headache that really got me down last night. I've got a lot on my mind. Too much. I've been trying to let it go, give it to God, but it's very hard at times. I'm scared a lot. Scared of messing things up, of hurting people around me, unintentionally of course. It's my actions that seem to hurt people. I feel guilty for being happy a lot of the time because it brings hurt to others. It's so complicated and stupid. I know this doesn't sound like a very "up" blog entry. I just need to get this out right now. Like I said, the past couple of days I've been somewhat happier than I have been. But there is still this lingering feeling. I'm still having a hard time about my dad, even though it's been a year and 2 months. I miss him so much...I haven't been crying for a few days, which is good but today I feel like I will...and I REALLY don't want to. I just got over a major headache and I know crying will create another one. *sigh* I'm gonna go workout now, put my energy into that. I have my hard job to do tonight at the shop so I try to get a workout done in the afternoon. Here's hoping to sunshine and better days...
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