I´m still here!
Thursday, April 08, 2010
Today that fact has to be a focus of mine - I overate yesterday evening after having a great day so today I feel hopeless again... until I search my friends for the sparkers I envied at the beginning because they were losing so much and doing so well.
And - many of them seems to have quitted... maybe not on their health journey but they don´t spark anymore.
So I will try to see my consistancy here as the tool that will bring me to my goals in the end. As long as I ´m sparking there is hope that things will work. I am really tired of losing this battle over and over and I have to find some strateghy that WORKS!
For today I will be happy if I don´t gain any weight this week...
I am searching the net to find something about "fat allergy" - it is common that complusive overeaters say that they can´t eat sugar or white flour. I am beginning to suspect that it is fat that brings me down, eating pork fat really gets me going and maybe it´s the same with butter... but fat is a part of the essential nutrition so I will have to find a way to get it without being triggered - maybe it dould be done through olive or granola oil - I know that a sppon of dressing with oil won´t make me want more (the opposite, just thinking about eating a spoon of oil makes me feel sick)
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