gotta stay on top of the game (18/90)
Tuesday, April 06, 2010
wow, it's been a while. no, i haven't forgot my spark life lol... i guess i've been avoiding it. i've been having such a hard time with my journey. i haven't been to the gym in about 3 weeks, and i haven't been running (and it's nice out!!! WTF??!). i've been eating the right foods, but not in the right portions. i've been emotional eating. not so much when i'm mad, but if i'm happy or sad i seem to binge (when i'm mad i clean lol).
i've been getting hooked on the tv show ruby. she is truly inspirational, and so down to earth. i'm totally steamed that stupid dish network took the style network off the package that we have. i watched the new one on sunday, and today i was looking for the style network to tivo next sunday since i won't be home. it was gone. i'm soooo disappointed! i did take an idea that her room-mate had though (it is a little more ghetto though! lol). i picked up 127 rocks outside, and put them in a jar. for each pound i lose i'm going to take a rock out, and put it in another jar. i figured that would be the perfect visual motivation i need. i've made a couple little posters with random pictures to give me that motivation. i think i'm going to continue doing that. i put my weight on it and put pictures of my babies. it'sw amazing how much i HAVE LOST since november, and how much my babies have grown.
ugh.. i have so much to work on, it's just a little overwhelming. i know i have to take it in baby steps.