No rocking chairs.
Tuesday, April 06, 2010
I wonder if worrying is learned or if we are set up at birth by some inherent process. Learned I think.
I don't believe my parents were worriers, both were more pragmatic by the time I came along(I was the youngest of four siblings)they knew what worked, what they could change, changed what they could if they wanted to do so and I think accepted the rest.
WOW, sounds like AA.
A lot of that rubbed off on me so the only time I'm anxious is if something is really scary medically and I guess that's only if I'm not sure what's wrong.
If I know, I read till I feel knowledgeable and prepared. I experience a rise in blood pressure every time I go to the MD's office just because it is the MD"s office. Sounds silly, but I track my BP every day at home, so I know. But knowing allows me to accept the nurse telling me what the readings are.
Two surgeries proved being knowledgeable is best.
I probably make a better follower than a leader because I don't worry and so don't consider all possibilities or consequences.
And I guess I'm comfortable with that although I'm also comfortable with leading if I know everything or almost everything.
Enough. I guess I got into that stream of consciousness thing.