I need to VENT!!!!
Monday, March 22, 2010
Okay so I get this way once a month (TOM). And then I am fine. But I dunno this time. My hubby pisses me off so much. I have so much on my plate as it is and I need him to help me more. THis is NOT a first for this problem. I have talked to him about this for almost 5 years (since we had the kids). But now that I am working the daycare during the week and part time job all weekend and going to the gym on MOnday, Wednesday and Friday. I need some help. And before I went and signed up for all this I check it out with him. He told me to do what I need to do and he would do what he needed to do at home. He hasn't!!! I confront him on it and he says he does stuff. Like what?? Empty the trash in the bathroom??? Like I would notice that. All I am asking for is 15-30 minutes of his precious time when he gets home from work. And I can't even get that!!!
My hubby has a hormone deficiency and needs to take meds for it and doesn't. I have begged him pleaded with him and even got his family to help. NOTHING!!!! SUCKS.. If he took these meds he would have more energy to help me around the house and other things. The deal was that on nights that I cook dinner and go to the gym he cleans up after dinner. Fair right?? NOPE. I went to the gym and cleaned off the table and put the dishes in the sink. I come home from the gym and all he did was bring the barrel of trash to the street. Mind you he didn't take the trash out of the house to put in the barrel. Whatever was in the barrel went to the street. So I asked him if he was going to empty the kitchen trash he said yes. I said what about the dishes?? He says wasn't planning on it. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!
I have 5 kids tomorrow for the daycare I can't have the sink full of dishes?? What the heck is he thinking?? I am working 7 days a week with no break and the last thing I should be worried about is him not pulling his weight. This is an on going problem. I don't know what else to do. I tried talking to him, reasoning with him, kicking him out, talking to his family etc. I can't think any more. AND yes he is the baby of the family. I should have known. His mom did everything for him and I mean EVERYTHING. SHe still does. Drives me mad. I feel like I am falling further and further behind with stuff. I have to write everything down so I don't forget to do something or forget an appointment or to get something at the store. ETC..... I hate being this overloaded. I need to get more daycare kids so I can quit my part time job so I have time off. But I just took on a part timer and my friend is coming with her baby in 4 weeks. That will help but I would like one more full timer. Some days I think I must be crazy but if I did this during the day I wouldn't have to work the weekends.
Thanks for letting me vent it out I dunno if this is going to help me at all. I really want to lose this weight and I feel like the work I am putting in it should be coming off faster. I know that is not possible and I should be happy with 2 pounds a week. I have been stuck for so long I just want to be under 200 already.