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Tuesday, March 16, 2010

What is your name?
What is your quest?
What is your favorite color?

I have no idea where that came from originally. Four of my sons are older than 15 and they used to love to say that. One even wanted to put it on the answering machine! LOL

So my name is Flutter-by (or Pam).
My quest is to lose over 100 pounds. I will only focus on the 20 I am working on right then.

My favorite color is blue.

I keep struggling and going no where. I have been reading, studying and pondering regarding what I want to do.

I am not sure why I have not accomplished more. But, if the truth be told I have not had a good relationship with food for about 23 years. I used to have a better one. I did not realize how bad it had gotten until I moved to where I live now. I have a mirror that shows more of my body. I really need to get a full length mirror. It is worse than I thought! Yikes. I have seen it. I have been looking at it for the past 2 years. I spend so much time thinking about it. I spend some time doing what it takes but I seem not to be doing the right things. I think I go in the right direction but I don't follow through enough. One day...plus one day will add up to a whole lot of days.

I need to write down my food choice, my exercise choices and my struggles. For this week I am going to write down what I say to myself that becomes a block. I will even try to find solutions. For example I decided to only eat at the table (thanks Beck diet solutions.). Then my family put some stuff on the table and ate in the living room and watched movies. Well, that sounds harmless but, it is not following my plan to eat at the table and pay attention to the food.

So my quest for the week is to pay attention to what I am doing. To praise myself for good choices and to see if I can figure out what to do about the bad.

My quest for this week is to identify and if possible solve the problems.

I feel scared as I think about giving up sugar and getting healthier. I know what I must do. I keep rebelling. It is time, past time in fact to do what needs to be done.
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  • 4MYPTS
    4107 days ago
    I'm afraid to give up sugar too! It plays far too big a role in my life!! You are doing great! I love how you analize things and find a way to solve the problem! Keep up the good work!
    4108 days ago
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    Food tracking and writing down your feelings is a great tool. It really opens your eyes.

    I have chosen to make changes that do not affect my family directly as I think it would be to frustrating to take that on along with everything else. I am focusing on things that I can control and avoiding conflict where ever possible.

    I hope you have a good week and I hope you gain some insight into what will help you on your journey.

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    4108 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5959732
    You are aware and putting it into a blog which is an amazing step in the right direction. emoticon
    4108 days ago
    So much of my journey has been retraining my brain.
    4108 days ago
    You are amazing! I'm recommitting too! Sign me up!
    4108 days ago
    Your children should introduce you to "Monty Python and The Holy Grail."

    4108 days ago
  • DIVAJJ107
    Knowing the problem is half the battle... it's amazing this mental war we play?
    4108 days ago
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