Sunday, March 14, 2010
i realized something so silly and childish about myself. Whenever I dont lose weight or i even gain weight i act like a child and do my time of pouting and protest. Its ridiculous but i seem to always do it. I caught myself yesterday and just had to laugh. I was making a sandwich and since i was protesting "HELL YES I WANT MAYO AND CHEESE ILL SHOW ...them?" uhh there is no one to show..lol. Just myself. Way to go. Im not gonna exercise today darn it! Ok..the scale isnt gonna be moving down any faster now! This isnt the only time ive done this, but it IS the first time I realized how ridiculous it is that I do it. Will I be able to change this reaction in the future? I hope so but my immediate reaction when im feeling something other than positive is to eat! And frustration is one of those triggers. I even was telling myself that muscle weighs more than fat etc. but that doesnt help in the moment. Do i think i look good? yes. My clothes look good on me, which is why i did take new photos. The issue for me is how i look to myself without the clothes and with my goal bathing suit on. Its not pretty my friends lol. And pouting and throwing my own kind of "tantrum" isnt gonna help! In other news..
We had our family dinner last night that was cancelled last week. We ended up going to the same restaurant we WERE going to go to last time thank goodness and i got exactly as I planned. One chicken breast not two, and my veggies..delicious. I managed to avoid the fried onion blossom type thing the family ordered for the table and that felt good. Yesterday was a beyond beautiful day here and i loved it. Felt like a sneak peak to summer..its just around the corner..I gotta get movin and stop my protesting/pouting whatever you wanna call it! And if I dont lose again next week, ill have to remind myself to just keep on keepin on! Hope you all had a fantastic saturday and remembered to move your clocks forward! Love you ALL!