Gosh

Well, the news came today. The Curves in my area is closing. I work there and will now be jobless as there's no way I can scramble for a new job and finish my schoolwork AND try to be looking for a full-time job when I'm done. All of this on top of the insanity of the schoolwork, the boy, and now having to ask my mother for help.

Don't get me wrong, I'm incredibly lucky to have a great mom who I know will help me out. It's just that I feel reallllllllllllllllly bad that I have to do so. Because otherwise there'd be no finishing school and a HUGE loss of that dough. So...

There's going to be a few changes in plan. First of all, change in March goals. No language this month. None. All spare time will be spent on my thesis. I will accept help from mom in April and hopefully start work right after my exit exams or grad (end of April and mid-May respectively). Essentially, I want to finish my thesis this month. I.e. start and finish. Somehow write a 50 page paper in a month. Complete insanity, I know. Plus, I have a 15 page paper due in April as well for my class, which I have to turn in stuff prefacing it in the meantime.

As for budgeting... well, I'm going to enjoy my lunch and whatever else with Christine and Anne (the Kula sisters!) tomorrow and get my hair cut on Monday. I realize I could cut out the hair cut, but two things (a) I desperately need it and (b) I've already lost my nails, do I really need to lose one more thing? So Monday morning, I'll get up, workout, head over to get my hair done, then spend the entire afternoon in a bookstore Starbs and read forward in class. Just spend the day PLOWING through reading, so that opens up time to just PLOW through the thesis. One step at a time right? Instead of going about all this helter-skelter, this opens up my time and uses it wisely.

Upshot is, I'm a little stressed and bummed. I'd hoped she'd wait until the end of April, but... my life lately hasn't really been working out all that well for me. So... I'm going to look at my silver linings. I have a great mom (and dad, but mom's the one who busts her butt), I will have time in April to work on my thesis and prepare for my exit exams, I will have time in April to search for a longer-term job, I will have time to re-prep for my personal training exam that I never got around to and maybe pull some side work, I will have time and freedom to do a lot of things.

I'm trying to stay positive and just work on getting things done as they need to. It's all I can do at this point. One step at a time and work to stay afloat. Back to the workout grind tomorrow.