3-5-2010 - Who loves you baby!
Friday, March 05, 2010
This week started off slow, I was sick and then got up to speed on Wednesday. I am still coughing but nothing major. I have kept up with my exercise schedule. I am a little behind on sparking, been a little busier, this is my week to meet and greet new members, and I do love meeting all the newbies and being of help to them. I have made a lot of new friends and am looking forward to seeing their progress in the coming months. All this extra has left me a little behind on keeping up with my older friends and buddy's but do not fear, I have a plan.
Today is grocery shopping day. My plan is to get my cardio and strength done, get out to the store and get that done and then set aside at least an hour to get by and do a little catching up.
One thing I take very seriously are my friends here on SP well my friends anywhere actually. Friends to me are gifts and treasures. They are not to wasted or set aside until you have time. You have to make time for them. I have gotten to know such outstanding of mostly ladies on SP, they are a constant source of inspiration and encouragment, just by being here and fighting through various problems, because we share with each other we learn so much. It is a joy to see them each day and read their status or blog or comments on my blog or anothers. In reality as one dear friends often puts it, this is our family here on SP. I do agree. In life we have a family we are born or married into, but here we have chosen a family from the many members to those who become near and dear and in some ways we are closer to them than family.
I thnk that is one of the many reasons SP appeals to me, the sense of belonging. I know I need that since in so much of my life I never felt I belonged. Even at times I was content with a less then full life, it was what I had and I didnt know there could be more. I have learned in my many years that one thing that holds us back from feeling really content is ourselves, not being able to love ourselves we limit those who love us. I didnt love myself for most of my life, that is a new feeling only in the last maybe 8-9 years I have been learning to love me. In 2003 once my divorce was final, and I left that life behind also coming to terms with what those years had done and taken from me, I began a true healing process to find me and to love me for who I am at this moment. I am not fully there, but I am close. Learning about being healthier and all that it encompasses is aiding me that journey. We must learn to love ourselves, I know its not easy, but it needs to happen and soon, for you to be ready for all the changes that will come as you get fitter and thinner. You have to love you now to know that being smaller will not make your life better, if you have not embraced yourself. I had a large, thick and high wall protecting my inner me, but it stops people from coming in and really stopped me from growing. I have been chiselling away at that wall for many years, too many, but now I take the risk and open up and deal with whatever happens. Some times it hurts, but most times its good and filling with happiness.
You know this isnt what I started to write, but it is what came out. Soul searching just happens and its all good.
So I wish for my dears friends to love themselves a little more today and I will start by sending all a big hug now give that to yourself!! Give yourself the gift of love.