Oh my goodness!!! **caution: don't read if you love fast food**
Monday, March 01, 2010
So, I'm back up again. I was lying in bed, trying to visualize my way out of this tough spell....wondering why I suddenly seem to hate myself for making a few poor food choices after seeing myself be successful with this whole process for the first time in years... I had some sugar here and there the past few days, yesterday it made me sleepy, but today it took it to another level. Its now important to disclose to you what I had this evening..... sushi roll (salmon on brown rice) with wasabi and low-sodium soy sauce, lettuce wraps with ground chicken, and an hour later, the most sinful churro you can ever imagine (if the churro got baptized in chocolate and filled with vanilla).
I started to think about what effect the sugar had on me.. I started googling sugar and depression....because I feel really bad, and unable to sleep... I haven't felt this way this in a while. Since I've been paying attention to what I eat, sleep has not nearly been as much of a problem.
Then, I come across this: http://www.city-data.com/forum
You don't have to go to the site, here is the part that opened my eyes:
Greenmachine posts: I made Hamburger Helper yesterday and ate the entire thing in two days, having it for breakfast, lunch, and dinner until it was gone.
It brought me little happiness. Now today I am tired and depressed. I notice that whenever I start eating a lot of sugar and starch, I start sleeping a lot. I've been mildly depressed lately anyway, but the Hamburger Helper put me over the edge. I started eating it and couldn't stop. The more I ate, the more I wanted. Now, today, I'm a mess.
Yogikarategirl responds: MSG can cause depression, headaches, inflammation...
CLICK!! Suddenly, the seemingly innocuous choices I made at dinner beforehand reveal their ugly hand! I remember thinking at dinner, "hmm, soy sauce..haven't had that in a while.. I wonder what they used to season the chicken in the lettuce wraps"
Fast forward six hours... I can't sleep, I'm mad at myself over a damn churro, etc, but more importantly, I have all these feelings of self-loathing that have not been this severe since I was eating my old way. In fact, in the past few days, my feelings had been getting SO much better..even as recently as this afternoon.. before dinner.
I can't begin to process what this epiphany means for my diet. I just realize now that whatever they are putting into foods in restaurants is hazardous to my health, both physical and mental!
If you're sitting and reading this and finding it hard to believe, you're not alone.. so did I.
Has anyone else felt *anything* like this eating a substantial amount of processed foods after a round of clean eating?