2-27-2010 - A much better Day
Saturday, February 27, 2010
To all those who read and commented on my blog from Friday. Thank you very much for your words and caring.
I spent about 5 hours cleaning the house got a couple rooms looking great. I actually ran out of time for 2 others. When I clean like this I mean I am moving stuff everywhere and dusting everything. We have time floors in family room. hallway and kitchen, so that means sweeping and vaccumming and then, Bob got me a steam cleaner for floors, wow does that work well. We have space carpets in everyroom with tile, so those were moved and vaccummed. I must say it all looks great. Our poor cats were kept on the move they are not fond of the vaccumn.
I will tell you that once I finished the blog yesterday, in all the tears I could not even see the screen, but at that moment I knew exactly what I had to do. Yes its was painful a decision, I know in my heart is the right now. I wish I was not put in this place but it is what it is.
Bob is a wonderful man and just a treasure. He is not pushing decision. His work is being terrible, officce politics and affexts what he can do to really do his job the way he likes. He so needs to get out and do this that make him happy. But there is no way as we downsize to take my sons along. It is time for them to get out and learn to live life for themselves. I now that so called tough love is what is needed. what I proposed is that we give Josh time to finish school, which we will know by the end of May if it will be Aug or Dec. If Aug then give them a couple months to find work get an income and plan to be moving by the end of the year. I know that is way long, but I really want and Bob agrees to get Josh through school, he is so close to the certificate. I am hoping that by putting a time limit on this will help Bob and me too. Its all about accepting and then dealing.
That is what yesterday was, accepting what I knew in my heart I had to do and then making a plan and dealing with it. A bonus I got a pretty clean house.
I am pretty tired but I am ok.
Today is getting a little more done that I didnt do, helping Bob with the garage so we can get that project all done. I do need to spend some time getting my plan for March all mapped out and since Monday is March I had better get it do.
Thank you all again for being my friend and talking to me honestly, It is what I wanted and more needed. You are super and a true gift.
Have a wonderful day no matter the weather, keep in sunny inside of you and shine. I plan to do that.