Wednesday, February 24, 2010
I am in the throes of frustration with my degree... realizing I don't know whats going on with this dissertation, or how I can best approach it over the next 8 months-1 year (who's counting anymore). I have been trying not to tap into these feelings, of how frequently and easily I'm frustrated.
It was suggested today that I needed to take a vacation. I was so upset. I just want to get on track and get this ball moving forward! I realized I was a crying, sobby mess... so I came home. And then, I went all crazy.. on a larabar and a bailey latte. Once I had that, I was able to get back on track. I'm glad that it was an indulgence (that I made myself so I could do it moderately), and not an all-out binge as it may have been if I deprived myself more. I realized that I needed to have some compassion for myself.. I do feel better now. I have a tendency towards extremes, and just know today it wasn't working for me. So, instead, I'm sitting here in front of the TV with puffy eyes, watching inspirational stories on TV..and trying to exhale.
Bonus YAY for me: I did a weights workout this morning, before anything else :)