Wednesday, February 24, 2010
I titled this blog "Recovering" because that's just what I feel like I'm doing. Recovering from a lot of things. Although this past week was the best week of my life, it was also very stressful. Let me get all the bad out of the way first, then I can finish with the good.
It's just this whole week was tense and stressful off and on because I'm still dealing with deep issues at home and it caused a lot of tension when my boyfriend was here. I just really got to the point where I couldn't handle it and I was feeling physically sick over it. Having back problems and I passed out one day. That's never happened to me, it was a scary experience. And later when I fought with my friend over things, I stood my ground and then broke down about it over the phone with my boyfriend. He always knows how to calm me down though. Praise God for him. Well...I'm not gonna go into the details of everything it was just VERY frustrating at times and I always felt like I was walking in broken glass or sneaking around.
So I'll skip to the good. My boyfriend was here from Monday to Monday and it was the most amazing time with him. At first, I was very shy, but I soon felt really comfortable around him, like we'd always been together. See, this is the first time we met face to face. I never knew this could happen to me. ME of all people, ME the one who was meant to be alone for the rest of her life, ME the one who could never get a guys attention. And here I have this wonderful Ugo who loves me for who I am, all I am and all I am becoming. Thank you love. It's just really insane to me to think that this week happened, but it did. We had a lot of fun, went several places and showed him some Washington scenery. He loved it. And at night we'd lie down and cuddle and watch Frasier. We talked a lot too, we are really close but I feel closer now. I can tell him things that I can tell no one else and he can do the same with me. Everything just feels SO right when we're together. I've been trying hard not to cry since he left Monday but it's hard not to. I miss him so much and it doesn't feel right with him being gone. I have to say he is very hot in person lol and an excellent kisser! We're each other's first kiss....so we practiced a lot...hehe. I'd give anything for another one or even just a warm Ugo hug. I love him SO much.
So this week, I didn't workout much. I should have but I was busy and my back hurt and wasn't feeling well at times. I did workout one day, ran some and walked A LOT. So it's not like I was inactive and lazy just didn't follow my routine. But I lost 4 pounds this week. Wasn't eating much because of stress and such. I just didn't have much of an appetite. But I'm ok. My size 16 jeans are getting lose on me which is both good and bad. Bad because right now I can't afford to buy new clothes and I'm getting rid of all my baggy stuff. I worked out last night though and it felt really good to get back to it. Just last night when I went to bed I didn't feel well at all. Lack of energy, congested, chest tight and achey. Ugo called this morning to tell me he was in Minnesota and he had a dream that I was not feeling well. I was like O_O wow...we really do have a connection. OK well I feel tired and I'm gonna try to feel better so I can workout later today. *HUGS SELF* I needed that.