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Winter Blues

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

The last few months have been tough for me. Hypernating is more like it. Eating, sleeping, and working when I had to, but other than that.....nada.

Today is a new day. I wanted to get up early enough to eat breakfast, and take the dog outside like I do. Ate breakfast, read the Bible, went back to bed for awhile. Showered, walked the dog, and did a few weights. Not much, but a starter.

I have felt like a failure in church, cause I quit going. Felt like I was being pushed to do what I was not, a teacher. Besides that, the breakup of my boyfriend 6 months ago, left me feeling ugly, I suppose, unwanted. I have been seeing myself age too, which doesn't help. So I ate, the only thing I liked to do. I would just stay home, warm in bed, and play games on my laptop..

Today, I am choosing to make changes. No one said I have to, just me.

I want to stop and enjoy this moment, not the past and what happened, nor the future, which hasn't gotten here yet. True happiness is in the journey, not in the destination. Help me Lord to continue to see what each moment holds, the right now. "For you have not given us the spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline." 2 Tim 1:7. We can do this.
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  • TMNOLLAN1
    Amazing to read what one was doing and thinking a few years ago. Winter is here and yet I am not that same person. Awesome for the changes, thanks be to the Lord. Nor do I find myself wanting to hybernate today. There is so much to be thankful for, I am alive and at peace because I was obedient way back then. God is good all the time.
    2821 days ago
  • TMNOLLAN1
    Thank you everyone for your encouragement. I appreciate that. Just found this old SP page of mine, when I added my son as friend. Ha ha. I am also GOTTALOSE4ME1 too. Maybe I couldn't find myself. Who knows. But I have been on for a few years and hanging in there. Up a few more pounds than I would like but making positive changes. God bless each and every one of you for your help. It means a lot to me.
    2821 days ago
  • JODIRICHARDS
    God's princess, you are loved and chosen! I pray you drink rich from God's word and receive the encouragement you need to grow and get to a point of enjoying the journey. Sounds like you know what to do, how can we help encourage you to do it? Could you do the daily routine you shared for a week and reward yourself with a pedicure? Like Patty said one foot in front of the other and with some pretty nail polish it might help you with the next step. emoticon
    3892 days ago
  • SLENDERELLA61
    Tough days transform when you make good choices just for you! Once you are moving in the right direction it will get easier. Take really good care of yourself. Glad you are part of our team! Hang in there. -Marsha
    3893 days ago
  • PATTYSH
    One foot in front of the other......a day at a time......I could throw out some more old ones, but you get the idea. I think you know what you have to do to feel better, and started it today. Getting up and dressed is the first start. And, by the way.....you are no where near "ugly" as you described yourself. I understand the feeling though. Men can certainly do a number on our heads, can't they. But he is wrong! You are a very pretty woman. Start each day with an affirmation about yourself....something simple that you like and make it your mantra for the day. Those winter blues can be chased away!
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