Wednesday, February 17, 2010
long story short- i'm bored. i've been eating all day. ugh.... it's all been "healthy" food, but i'm afraid the portions haven't been all that great. i'm with the babies all day, sometimes (most of the time) by myself. i do know that they are still super easy because they aren't mobile yet, but i end up not doing anything all day. i ahve so manythings that i want to do, but i don't have time to leave my babies until someone comes home. that is usually later in the day, so i take that time to go work out, then i go to bed. things need to change...
the weather outside i just beautiful today. i would really love to go out running, but i don't think that will happen. i'm going to the gym anyway tonight.
although i haven't been losing as much as i would like, on the bright side i'm happy that i've been conscience about all of the decisions i've been making. the good, the bad, the ugly. at least i feel guilty about all the binges. i know i'm doing something wrong when i do it. it's just hard to change old, bad habits. being healthy has been on my mind for the past 4 months. so props to me.
the day my car broke down on the side of the interstate i was coming home from.. i guess you could call her my "shrink". she told me to say one good thing about myself everyday. that's really easier said than done. i guess that comes hand in hand with the depression, and low self esteem. i've just decided that i'm going to say something nice about myself for the remainder of my 90 day blog.
so my good thought for the day is: although i'm not seeing results, i am doing a good job thinking healthy. i just need to learn how to take my own advice.