I'm back... again... I know, you're surprised, right?
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Ok, so I apparently did one of my famous "Fall off the face of Spark" acts this month. I'm not really sure exactly how it happened... I have a good guess, but I'm still surprised at myself!
First, my parents were in Haiti doing disaster relief. It wouldn't have affected my Sparking if we all didn't work in the same place. Unfortunately, I was having to cover for the people who were covering for them -- and there went the last week of Jan and the first week of Feb.
Then, just as they were getting back from Haiti, I had a READ THROUGH of a movie that I WROTE!! It's not surprising that I wrote it -- I'm always doodling with something, what's surprising is that I LET OTHER PEOPLE READ IT -- and I sat through a critique afterwards!!
That's SO HUGE for me!!
And, coming down from the incredible high that I got from hearing something I wrote come to life, I got sick. It wasn't the flu, it wasn't strep throat, the doc swears it wasn't an ear infection -- but it felt like all three... And, since I don't have internet at home (and I couldn't sit up anyway) there went most of last week.
The last half of the week was spent trying to catch up with the first half... (If someone could explain to me why people think you want to work harder when you come back from being sick than before you left, I'd appreciate it...)
I spent a good bit of Saturday kicking myself for not posting the second weekend stretch that I had planned for the Dec. 27-Jan. 2 class that I co-lead.
And, while all of that was going on, I was getting together a pair of short stories for a local writing competition... They may not be great, but they took another HUGE amount of effort on my part... First, I'm having to let other people read them and risk the fact that they may not like them... It's not easy, but I'm doing it. And then, as if the inherent risk weren't enough, I'm had to have HEADSHOTS taken because they needed publicity photos.
So, there I was -- not yet at my goal, still not comfortable with the way I look, and HATING pictures of myself because they never look as beautiful as I see myself from here -- letting people take multiple pictures of me. And, amazingly enough, there are actually a few that I kind of like.
I'm going to mail the entry packet this afternoon -- stories and photos alike...
And, hopefully, I'll pay a little more time and attention to my Sparking this week!
(If I weren't such a putz and had been sparking like I should have, you all would have seen that on Saturday AM I woke up at 203 lbs -- well under my halfway mark!! If this weekend hadn't been V-day, I might still be there... Oh well, I'm not giving up... I made my goal of being under halfway by V-day, and I'm going to make my goal (a little more permanently) of being under 200 by the end of the month!! I've got 2 weeks and 5.5 lbs... I WILL DO THIS!!!!!!)