The Good, the Bad and the Ugly
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
lol funny title I know...it's just...this has been one of those weeks from hell! It's been a plethora of emotions ranging from
I'm hugging myself...I need it.
Anyway there's been a lot of crap going on. Like...major scary stuff that I have no idea what to do with but I've been praying a lot and I think I've been handling it alright. It's just been majorly exhausting and I feel so drained. BUT I did manage to workout today, and do some running
not far but at least some. Stayed busy, and found ways to cope today. I just...had a REALLY bad scare last night with something involving my best friend. I don't want to go into the details now but it's...not good.
On the plus side....My boyfriend is coming to see me on Monday!!!!!!
I wasn't supposed to know though...was supposed to be a total surprise but...it got messed up. He told me what he was planning and it would have been SO amazing....so sweet, so shocking and funny. He was gonna be hiding in the closet with a video camera and he was gonna post it on YouTube for all of our friends and the world to see! lol that....just everything he told me...all his painstaking planning for me...
just...takes my breath away...and even though it's not gonna happen like that. I know it will still be wonderful and amazing looking into his eyes and finally being able to hug him and such. I am so nervous...a bit scared, excited and smile so much every time I think about him being here with me, right now it just seems so surreal. I am truly blessed to have him and he is my grace gift from God.
See...this is just so weird for me still because...like...having someone like this in my life, someone who loves me, I thought was never in the cards for me. It's like Kim + boyfriend= huh uh..now way! And then here comes this new friend, this charming, talented, funny, sweet genius Beast Boy who I fought falling for...cause I thought I could never have him. And now I do and it's still so
I love you Ugo....so much, I can't wait to see you.