Wednesday, December 30, 2009
I have challenged several of my friends to reflect on this past year and thought that I should do this since I asked others too :)
This year has been one of ups and downs. I was sailing along until about June. I was losing a few pounds and exercising regularly. Then my mom started getting sent to all of these doctors. She was having balance issues and headaches etc.... Her memory wasn't the greatest and she wanted me to take her to these appointments. I started neglecting myself to make sure she was taken care of. I know that in order to care for others, I must take care of myself but My stresses and worries overcame my desire to treat myself well. My mom was diagnosed with a brain tumor the first week of July. We have spent countless hours at doctors to find out that her symptoms would be far worse if the tumor was removed so she will always have a brain tumor. The doctors do not think it will grow but they cannot fix the damage already done to her memory and the headaches will remain a constant part of her life. In addition to all of this, my mom's finances have hit rock bottom. I spent over half my income for the past 6 months caring for my mom's needs. I cannot tell you the stress that I was under for that. I finally reached the point where I just couldn't take it anymore and put some of the burden on others. I want to do what is right, but I can no longer allow these burdens to cause me to be sick and depressed.
Our church started a weight loss group ( I call it the Pudgy People Association) in October and this group has helped me to begin to focus on myself again. I have been following ww points for the most part since October. I did not have Sugar the Month of November until Thanksgiving and then went without sugar the first 3 weeks of December. I have shown that I can control what goes in my mouth and watch my portions. I am also starting to get back to a regular exercise schedule.
Obstacles that I face are dealing with my mom's health, realizing that I cannot fix all of her problems and realizing that I will need support and guidance from others in order to get healthy. I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome this year as well and that has led to some of my health issues as far as constant pain and some depression. I am learning to deal with this too and know that the best way to treat it is to be healthy.
Some goals for 2010 that I hope to accomplish are
Before anything else. GIVE EVERYTHING OVER TO GOD AND LET HIM LEAD ME!!!!!!
1. Exercise 6 days a week
2. Drink 8 or more glasses of water a day
3. Follow my WW points
4. Support others because I cannot do this alone
5. Walk as much as possible in addition to cardio exercise
6. Remember the good in myself because though not perfect, I am loved and worth taking care of myself.
7. I do NOT go on the back burner. IF I cannot care for myself, who would trust me to take care of them?
Now some Positive things about myself for reassurance as I begin a new year
1. I am a person who prays
2. God LOVES ME. Christ Died for ME
3. My husband thinks I am beautiful
4. I am compassionate
5. I am a good teacher
6. I am a good friend to others
7. I take good pictures of nature
8. I have a great church family
9. Sparks has been there for me through everything.
10. MY FRIENDS HERE ARE AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!