Tuesday, December 29, 2009
I joined Sparkpeople around 8/08. I did really well for a couple of months...then went back to my crappy old ways. I spent almost all of '09' pretending to be attempting to get my self together.
I am not making any New Year's resolutions, but I have decided to take a huge step for me and I have joined a "Biggest Loser Challenge" at our health and wellness center where I work. I have always known that I need accountability in order to succeed in my weight loss endeavors, but I just haven't wanted to.
So now that I am quickly approaching 38 (with 40 looming on the horizon), I want to change my life and body. I am tired of feeling like I'm 50 because I am too fat. I don't want to end up with diabetes, heart disease, and the plethora of other wonderful conditions that typically accompany excessive fluffiness (i.e. morbid obesity).
I want to come out of the darkness (closet eating, public embarrassment, feeling uncomfortable in my own skin) and step out into the light (living my life unafraid of not being able to fit into chairs, having people stare at me, and doing things I have physically been unable to do for the last 15 years).
The challenge begins Jan. 9th and I have to say that while I am extremely excited to change my life, I am also afraid.