Sunday, December 27, 2009
There will be two posts tonight/ one about xmas and one about the year.
Let's start with xmas:
Xmas this year was a hard one for me. I ate an apple pie except for one slice, a 12 inch meatball sub,a half of tray of yeast rolls, a box of dark chocolate,a bowl of cereal all on xmas day.
Let's just say that I went overboard a little bit. So much loss that my friends were having now and Here I was the one feeling lonely and let my emotional eating take control.
I did detox and ate light yesterday and today and killed my self in the gym yesterday and today and will do so in the morning! Hopefully I will not pay for it on the scale too.
It's not that I miss having a family in my life,not the ones I was stuck with as a child at least.
It's just certain times I wish I would have had a loving family growing up that loved me for me and would have told me that I was worthy and they loved me. But that was not the case, so sometimes like this xmas I felt very alone. One day I will have a partner and human kids and I will have a family. Until then I have to remember that I am blessed and there are people in my life that love and care for me.