It's been a whole month...now I am gaining!
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Last MONTH: 155
This Week: 159.5
Weekly Loss : XXX GAINING
Total Loss: 120.5
Well, I have stopped exercising and started eating junk. I got so caught up with deadlines at work that I quit logging foods, cooking healthy foods, exercising, and even taking my vitamins. Now I am stuck in a rut.
I really don't want to start doing what I am supposed to be doing. It is so hard to get back on board after not doing it for so long. I hate it! But....too bad. I refuse to buy bigger clothes. I refuse to become the talk of everyone because I gain weight after WLS (because you know that is great gossip!). I refuse to feel bad about myself.
I soooo don't want to do this. I need some major support. I am going to start video blogging on YT again, too. I really cannot do this without support. I use to think I did not need my online buddies to succeed, but I do not have any intrinsic motivation left. I need something to keep me going. A contest challenge or something. It sucks that the new year will bring ANOTHER resolution to lose weight. I hope this is the last year for that!