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Wednesday, December 16, 2009



My new favorite picture of me and the husband (eventually I'll get used to that)!

I've been very active on my other blog adjustedreality.com/blog
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, but not much here. So I suppose I should stop in and say hi. Hi!

I'm still maintaining in the low 150's. 153.0 this week. I've been beating my head against the wall to break the 150 barrier for coming up on 9 months now, and honestly, I'm getting tired of it. I've tried so many different things, and it's finally becoming clear to me - I might just be where I need to be. At least for now. I might be a few lbs overweight by BMI standards, but considering I'm wearing size 6-8 and running half marathons and able to bust out 50 regular pushups, maybe that doesn't matter so much.

I'm still going to attempt to lose weight through the end of the winter challenge I'm in, but after that, I'm going to evaluate my focus. Every time I've come to a fork in the road, I've chosen to stick with weight loss, but this time I'm really considering just letting myself be HERE right now for a while and really just focus on the running and eating the right stuff and eating intuitively. If that nets me weight loss, awesome. If that nets me SIGNIFICANT weight gain, not awesome, and I'll just jump right back on the bandwagon. If I can maintain and continue making gains in my running and feeling stronger and stronger, I think that's the most important thing.

I'm a little scared, because I'm not currently completely happy with my body, but I'm coming to the realization it might be a head shift I need to make INTERNALLY, not necessarily just work I need to do on my exterior.

For now, though, back to dodging as many of those Christmas cookies as I can, and running as fast and as far as I possible can. 6 mile tempo @ 8:55 pace today and an 8 mile @ 9:40 pace Saturday. With another strength and yoga session somewhere in between the two. Stay warm, sparky folk!
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  • SYNCHRODAD
    "dodging as many of those Christmas cookies as I can.." That is commitment! Congrats on Motivator du Jour.
    4040 days ago
  • BLUEHARPY
    That picture is adorable! You both look cute and very happy.

    4049 days ago
  • BLUEHARPY
    That picture is adorable! You both look cute and very happy.

    4049 days ago
  • no profile photo BLAQUELORELEI
    Great pic! And you're probably right, you are where you need to be. Thanks for sticking it out with us though, that is motivating.
    4051 days ago
  • DIFROMWYOMING
    Well I appreciate you're hanging in there for us!
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    You might be right, though. If you're healthy and not having any health issues you might just be at your body's comfortable weight. What I am happy about is that you are at least considering letting yourself be happy where you are and letting those heady expectations go for awhile.
    You are AWESOME!
    I love the pic of you and the hubby, too.
    Di
    4052 days ago
  • CAROL3SAN
    If I ever get to 150 pounds I will finally have my weight challenge met, in addition to being one of the happiest people in the world.
    Good luck with your goal, and continue to enjoy life with your new husband.
    Blessings,
    Caroiolyn
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    4052 days ago
  • MYCUTEGIZMO
    No worries I'm sure you will do just fine..!!
    4053 days ago
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