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Thursday, December 10, 2009

I feel like I am in a quarter life crisis, I am completely un happy with my life, my appearance, and my everything.
I know I wont get to 110pounds any time soon but its not even about wanting to be thin. Its feeling lost, incomplete, like something is missing. I have thrown away my chances at an education, I've gained weight, I dont have anyone and as much as I love my cat and dog, they dont feel the void of real people.
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  • _MAOMAO_
    You're simply on a stepping stone, one of those places in life where you question everything and every move and every what if. I'll bet you haven't thrown any chances away for good. Life's pretty cool about sending repeat chances.
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    I'm turning 50 this month. I'm doing the same kind of questioning, believe me. I remind myself that this, too, shall pass.
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    3826 days ago
  • MEXIFRO33
    I turned 24 a couple weeks ago. I've definitely gone through my share of 'what the hell am I doing with my life?' moments over the past couple of years.

    I'm working full-time (just laid off last week, actually) but I'm determined to be the first person in my immediate family to graduate from university. I'm going back to school next September. I don't how I'm going to do it (the rent will hopefully start magically paying for itself....) but I want to make it happen.

    Whenever I get hugely overwhelmed with everything that's been dropped on my lap, I allow myself a couple days (or weeks, depending on what's going on) to just freak out. Just lose it. Just go nuts.

    Once I've gotten that out of my system, I stop thinking about the MASS of hardships and really try to work out the smaller issues I can tackle.

    I always think of taking smaller baby steps towards huge goals.

    My grandma, aunt, dad, and my boyfriend's grandma and mother all had major health crises this year. I visited them when I could and called as often as I could to make them feel better. I can't cure their cancer or heart issues, but I try to lift their spirits.

    I dropped out of college a couple years back. I've always regretted it. I want a degree, so I'm doing it part-time now while I work. I'm taking the plunge next year to finish it full-time.

    I hated my filthy, tiny apartment. It made me miserable every time I came home. I spent every single weekend for 7 weeks cleaning and decorating and reorganizing my place. I love it now. It's not perfect, but it doesn't make me miserable anymore.

    I hate that I'm totally out of shape and that I can't fit into any of my 'fat' clothes anymore. I joined Spark People and I'm in my first week of making this big change in my life.

    Definitely allow yourself some time to get through the low low low part of what you're feeling, but make sure to pick up the pieces and take some baby steps.

    *Sorry for the long post. My heart just goes out to you. I'm right where you are.*
    3826 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/10/2009 8:19:08 PM
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