And Then Something Snaps
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
I don't understand myself. I can be going along great, tracking, sparking, doing what I should, and then I have a day when perhaps I'm too busy, or perhaps something happens and I can't get to the computer...and something snaps.
And I don't track my nutrition.
Sunday was such a day: Church in the A.M. Followed by donuts and coffee (I sort of kept a tally in my head of the calories, but we all know how reliable I am [sarcasm]) followed by a long scouting service project and pizza in the pm. You can see how well off track I was.
And then I'm tired and I don't log in the next day. And so it goes.
Why is it so much easier to get off track than back on?
I was in the kitchen this morning wishing hard for cinnamon rolls. I crave cinnamon rolls on a very regular basis.
I resisted the urge to make some, partly because I was hungry, and I did not want to take the time. Partially because I know that homemade baked goods are death to any sort of weight loss efforts.
So I got out my spouted whole grain bread, and toasted a couple of slices. Mixed some grass-fed farm fresh butter, some local honey and some cinnamon together and made a spread. Took care of the cinnamon/sweet craving, but not the soft melt-in-your mouth bread craving. Oh well. I can live with that.
But what is it about me that is going along great with all of this and then something snaps, and like a Jekyll and Hyde monster, I turn from one into the other: From an in-control woman who has plans and is executing them, to a small child who wants what she wants and she wants it now with a devil may care attidue when it comes to food?
Well, I may not have logged on yesterday or the day before, but I'm here now, so that is something.