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Saying thanks for my blessing of 2009

Monday, December 07, 2009

This was written in answer to one of the forums of the red bra team.A marvelous team to deal with the mind problemns that make us overeat .Thought that sumarizing what has been this year to me would give tribute to the people that have helped me walk this journey back to health and happiness.
. I can still recall myself last Christmas .They where quite difficult times for my family as my schizophrenic son left the house to deambulate in november and I decided after finding out it was of his own will that I will not have him back.He is been in a shelter for addicts (he is a mental patient not an addict or alcoholic) the whole year.I have no contact with him.He is been seduced by an older man and I have decided not to do anything more about it.
He is an adult already and must lead his own life.Wish him all the good of the world but after 21 years of suffering have decided to put a stop to it.
Last december they did me emergency cardiac work up because after carrying 8 pound for about 20 steps was out of breath for an hour and had to call home to come and get me.Could not even walk the ramp of my house without help.Cardilogist told me needed to urgently lose weight and change my lifes priorities from family to myself or wouldn't be for them either.
This has been a slow process of mind preparing and willingness that got me to spark,quickfiring ,moving,the challenges team,walking programn,red team and finally no resolutions team. .This have been my main teams during this year although ocasionally use other.Have received the help of so many people that better not list as forgetting one would not be fair.
Some of the leaders of these team have been a major positive influence in my life.They know who they are and I thank them for it.Will try to pay it forward or backward if ever needed.I lost 43 pounds which has help me be able to walk again.My back still gives me problemns and it is still hard to bend or balance but can now walk my ramp and some more.
After the summer started to take French classes to improve my memory problemns with another wonderful teacher that has taught me that I can be able to slowly memorize again and learn a new language.To her I bow in thanks as previously was thought had in incurable degenerative disease of the brain.This has improved my selfesteem so much that in January I am going back to study again.
I am learning to dream again and when you dream you become unstoppable .Want to do many things I never did like kayaking,learn to dance ,laugh a lot ,lose the height and airplane fear,stop my claustrophobia etc.,learn to bike to be able to do a triatlon.( I am already swimming and walking).Last but not the least do a postgraduate degree in The Sorbonne in France for which I am learning French.
Most important of all i am learning to enjoy the daily journey and live in the present moment.
So this has been a wonderful ,exciting and growth year.At present I am trying to learn that the only thing I have to fear is fear itself.Will be welcoming the next year with new hopes and dreams, just one day at a time faking it if I cann't do it, but with no preconceived expectations except to keep walking in this road to health and happiness paraphrasing a dear friend and not forgetting in the daily journey to stop and nuture my good wolf as the other is always watching
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    Marta, your journey is inspiring.

    Yes, the day we begin to dream again... It's magic!

    Thank you for showing yourself love and respect.
    4094 days ago
    Wow! Thank you for sharing all this information!!! Sounds like you have built a wonderful support system and are on the right track in making positive changes in your life!
    4121 days ago
    Marta, great blog glad to be sharing this journey with you
    my friend
    have a great day...
    4121 days ago
    All the best for a Happy New Year and continued progress towards your goals! You are a brave lady.
    4138 days ago
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    This has been a challenging year. You are truly amazing! One day at a time and all of your dreams will become a reality. You are unstoppable!

    I can't teach you french (even though I took classes for two years) but I can give you pointers on kayaking.

    Remember to take care of yourself first always. That way you can be there for your family and friends.

    4140 days ago
    Look at all those dancin' & prancin' ladies! LOL
    4141 days ago
    Like all of us, you have a lot to be thankful for! Thanks for being my friend!

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    4141 days ago
    Marta, you've come a long way this year. I am really inspired by your bravery and determination to reach for your dreams, no matter what the obstacles may be.
    4142 days ago
    What a year Marta! You are a survivor. Be proud of yourself.
    4142 days ago
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    Marta emoticon you have come a long way this past year..i remember how your very first story you posted on here touched me and this how we started to communicate...look at you..you look even more gorgeous now.....and you have worked so hard on losing your extra pounds.... and you just keep on amazing me!! I am happy for you that you stayed strong throughout this past year..i know it was a tough one for you...but please keep on smiling and keep on moving ..because the sky is the limit!!Thanks for sharing this with us.... emoticon emoticon emoticon
    4142 days ago
    Wonderful blog!
    What a year for you!
    You inspire me in so many ways!
    Thank you for sharing!

    PS Beautiful pictures!!
    4142 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/7/2009 1:03:12 PM
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