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My disease and what I´ve learned from my landlady...

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Today it seemed hopeless - I have been overweight all my adult life and to think that I would be able to change that at the age of 57 seems too optimistic.

Ok - use the brain... was I really that overweight when I was 20? No, I was about 72-78 kilos and I wasn´t exactly skinny but I could still shop clothes in the "normal" department. After 30 I climbed up to 80-90 kilos and at 38 I started my company and life and weight went crazy... put on 10-20 kilos in a couple of years and that´s where I´m at today.

It´s not hopeless, I do not have to carry all this into my grave... btw did that scare me a lot last summer when I had an extra job as church janitor which meant that I carried a lot of coffins in and out of church for funerals. And I had somehow thought that your weight disappeared when you died - it was a shock to realize that fat people became heavy corpses... I decided to diet for the sake of the janitors... weird motivation don´t you think - I want to ease the backs of funeral people...

Anyway I really need to let go of future actions, it is today that matters and today I can stick to my meal plan and live as healthily as possible. If I think to much about results I loose hope, I have to focus on actions day by day.

My landlady is not overweight. Yesterday she had the most frantic cravings for sugar all day and she said that this was because she competed with her bordercollie sunday which meant she didn´t cook properly but went for a kebab with fries. And the day after she has eaten salt and fat she always gets these sugar cravings and they go away after 24 hours if she doesn´t nourish them with sweets..

Wow - the difference between her and me is that I - when eating "wrong" - decide that all is lost and go inte bingeing big time for many days. She just sees it as a consquence of bad choice food one day and goes back to her normal eating the day after...

Reminds me what a diet doctor has said: "It´s not what you eat between christmas and new years eve that matters, but what you eat between new years eve and christmas..."

So I am back on track and working towards my goals in a steady pace. If I slip I will get upp and continue as if nothing happened...

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    I find your blogs inspiratonal every time I read your words.

    I am thanking you for the reminder to watch what you eat from new years to Christmas! This was an insightful blog.

    I know you can do this even at 57 because I know I will do it at 55 and 2 years is not a lot between us.
    3668 days ago
    I have heard this from my father, he has been the same weight within 5 pounds for the last 40 years. His thoughts are, eat like a king for breakfast, prince for lunch and pauper for dinner. Eat to survive ...not life to eat!!!! I have been trying to keep his thoughts in my mind and it has helped me with things the last month. I hope that his thoughts will encourage you. You are a fighter and you will not give up....so look ahead for a healthier you!!!!
    3670 days ago
  • SBATES63
    Lifelong issues with weight change our thinking. We don't think like people who have never had weight issues. When I have a bad eating day or two, I think all is lost. I try and make myself remember how far I have come in this journey, not how far I have to go.
    3670 days ago
    That's a wonderful inspiration! I think it's hard not to fall into the mindset of failure and allow yourself to binge since you've already slipped...but in reality, the slip probably isn't as bad as we think and if we immediately pick ourselves up and continue as if nothing happened we'll be in a much better place. Good luck achieving your goals, this is a great thing to think about as the holidays approach!
    3670 days ago
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