Falling off and climbing back on!
Thursday, October 22, 2009
I fell off the wagon monday nightcoming back from that boat trip. Had half the bag of candy but stopped. But my compulsiveness is really tricky the next day it whispered in the back of my head "Well, you could stop eating candy yeaterday, that means that you can eat something today and stop too... I hesitated between being really spartan or going back to soups as usual. Phoned an OA-friend and left the decision to her.
She told me to eat soups and it worked. I´m back on my kamikaze soup menu and tuesday was hard to get through but now its thursday night and it´s day 22! Yihaaa!
Today I have been driving 800 kilometres - 400 in each direction for a lecture. I´ve spent ten hours in my car and I am really, really tired. Driving home the newspaper called and asked for my weekly column, which I wrote yesterday as I couldn´t do it today... I had forgotten to mail it så I had to drive straight home, sithout stopping for wc or dinner - I had my soups with me in thermos bottles... Came home at eight pm, send that column, had my soup and went to care for the horses. And now - to bed - lucky, lucky me that managed to get thorough this day. It´s over and tomorrow I will just sit around the house doing nothing all day... apart from cycling with the dogs, attending AA-meeting and taking care of my horses... And post the bill for todays work!