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Going to Mom's house

Sunday, October 18, 2009

I was headed to Parkville to my little nephew's birthday party. It takes about 30 minutes to get there. I had Cass, Kayla, Merlin and Maverick with me. We were listening to music and them my mind started drifting to some not so happy memories. A good friend was killed just outside of Parkville a few years ago. My Dad and Uncle passed away in my Mom's house. A block and a half away is a funeral home. That is where my Grandfather, 2 Uncles and my Dad went for services. I realized that I really don't like going to Parkville. It really bothers me. My sister also lives in Parkville. She doesn't like going to Mom's house either. We have tried talking to my Mom, but she doesn't understand. We try and talk about positives, but those emotions are still there. It's not that I break down, or cry or overeat or anything like that. I just know they are there. I'm not sure how I feel about this.

On the flip side of life....
Slept in until 8!!! Fixed a nice breakfast for the family. I chose to eat my oatmeal and protein. I started cleaning the "piles" in the kitchen. With so many in the family, we tend to collect mail piles in the kitchen! ARGH!! I sorted all of it out and pitched a lot also! Felt pretty good!!! Headed to the gym for upper body and abs. Then hit the elliptical for 30minutes. I then headed to the grocery store and home. Laundry and cleaned some more. It was a very productive day. I then went to the b-day party. I did eat a very small piece of cake. I did not have any soda...WOOHOO!

I made sure I had Kayla home at 7pm. Her mom was standing in the doorway. Kayla made the statement, "She never waits in the door for me." I told her things were different now. I also told her that it was an enjoyable week and that I appreciated that. I really did mean that. She wasn't snobby like she has been in the past.

As soon as I'm done here. I'm going to purchase the body building competition tickets for next Saturday!! emoticon

Positives:
1. Had a good work out.
2. Had an enjoyable day/week with the family.
3. Realizing that there is some under lying feelings/emotions that I need to deal with.
4. Enjoyed seeing my family tonight.


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  • MITURN
    Glad you had the nice day. I totally know what you mean about the mail. And the worst part is you give it to the kids 1,000 times and they just leave it sitting there!

    Sorry about the bad memories and Parkville. I used to go to a scrapbook store there. There are also a lot of other cool places to shop. I'm glad you try to enjoy the time you do have with your mom and family, it is so important.
    3784 days ago
  • CHRISTIEC73
    I am glad for the good things that happened. Getting along with Kayla, getting stuff done (I hear ya about them damn piles! lol) and not indulging in soda. I am sorry about the bad memories in Parksville. I know it must be very hard for you. Have a great week!
    3784 days ago
  • POPEYETHETURTLE
    FitPris,

    First, congratulations on your 81 pound weight loss!

    Secondly, I'm going to have to make some assumptions - and if I'm wrong, don't hesitate to call me on it.

    For a number of reasons, it's almost impossible for one generation to appreciate another, especially about where a parent calls home.

    For your Mom, Parkville holds not only painful memories, but happy ones, too. Her friends are probably there and she probably has a support network of friends pretty close around her.

    For you, right now, the painful memories are overpowering the older, probably happier times as a youngster. Don't let those fester and cause you pain.

    I just happen to be the leader of the Dealing with Depression team, and I know that a large number of our half million members have let something hurtful slip in under their shields and slowly work negatively on them.

    I don't think that you need anything as strong as seeing a mental health counselor, but you might want to find someone you trust and admire, and who has no reason to be concerned with your family business, to talk to and work the thorns out of your psyche.

    As a guy, I had some pieces of wood, not splinters, that I refused to deal with, some due to my combat experiences were pretty heavy. I finally realized I needed to get some of the cr*p out, and because I didn't want any of my friends to know I was "weak in the head", I chose to engage the help of a therapist, a stranger with whom I could step back a little, AND because she was ethically bound not to reveal my problems to anyone.

    If you choose, you could probably visit our team thread and get a lot of support and help to ease you out of the pain you are dealing with.

    I know you probably don't think it's a big deal, but why carry something that does pull you down, even just a little?

    I'm sure you'll do what is best for you, and good luck on achieving the lose of those last few pounds and achieving your your body fat percentage.

    Agape hugs (from Raytown)

    Bob


    3784 days ago
  • MRSHONEYC
    I'm so sorry you have negative feelings about Parksville - I know it's hard, but try to remember the things about those people that make you happy, not their final day, you know?
    CONGRATS on the PILES! My place is feeling like a PIG-STY! SO glad tomorrow is Monday so I can do some deep cleaning!!! I have NO EXCUSE, I know! LOL
    I looked up Moore - nothing "exotic" there as far as restaurants. They've got a Chili's ... hm. Lots of fast food places. What time do you think you'll be getting there and where is the "final destination" for the show - need to know so we can be there "on time" to meet up!!! SparkMail me or call.
    3784 days ago
  • SONIAFERNANDEZ
    Today it is MotherĀ“s Day here in Argentina.
    3784 days ago
  • no profile photo CD3149332
    whew! what a weekend or was it a day? Welcome back, hope the home and sad memories works itself out.
    3784 days ago
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