Going to Mom's house
Sunday, October 18, 2009
I was headed to Parkville to my little nephew's birthday party. It takes about 30 minutes to get there. I had Cass, Kayla, Merlin and Maverick with me. We were listening to music and them my mind started drifting to some not so happy memories. A good friend was killed just outside of Parkville a few years ago. My Dad and Uncle passed away in my Mom's house. A block and a half away is a funeral home. That is where my Grandfather, 2 Uncles and my Dad went for services. I realized that I really don't like going to Parkville. It really bothers me. My sister also lives in Parkville. She doesn't like going to Mom's house either. We have tried talking to my Mom, but she doesn't understand. We try and talk about positives, but those emotions are still there. It's not that I break down, or cry or overeat or anything like that. I just know they are there. I'm not sure how I feel about this.
On the flip side of life....
Slept in until 8!!! Fixed a nice breakfast for the family. I chose to eat my oatmeal and protein. I started cleaning the "piles" in the kitchen. With so many in the family, we tend to collect mail piles in the kitchen! ARGH!! I sorted all of it out and pitched a lot also! Felt pretty good!!! Headed to the gym for upper body and abs. Then hit the elliptical for 30minutes. I then headed to the grocery store and home. Laundry and cleaned some more. It was a very productive day. I then went to the b-day party. I did eat a very small piece of cake. I did not have any soda...WOOHOO!
I made sure I had Kayla home at 7pm. Her mom was standing in the doorway. Kayla made the statement, "She never waits in the door for me." I told her things were different now. I also told her that it was an enjoyable week and that I appreciated that. I really did mean that. She wasn't snobby like she has been in the past.
As soon as I'm done here. I'm going to purchase the body building competition tickets for next Saturday!!
1. Had a good work out.
2. Had an enjoyable day/week with the family.
3. Realizing that there is some under lying feelings/emotions that I need to deal with.
4. Enjoyed seeing my family tonight.
Strong Mind, Strong Body!