I *Should* Feel Guilty . . .
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
I am a little bit conflicted this afternoon. My husband came home from classes in a good mood for the first time in months. His classes are very stressful and he has all but become a ghost around our home. He surprised us with pizza, soda and those new Lava Cakes from Pizza Hut.
I should have declined or at least I could have grabbed the salad out of the fridge and only had ONE piece but I have missed him so much that any offering from him, even unhealthy food, seemed like an offering from the Gods. This is classic social eating at its worst.
Two pieces of pizza, some diet coke and a lava cake which was so good I had to sit and soak up its glory for about 10 minutes all went down the hatch. I think I ate about 1200 calories.
I will burn 600 tonight but still can't believe how easily I let my guard down! If I work really hard the rest of the night and watch portions I will probably only be over my calories by about 400. It could be worse, I guess, but I just can't believe how easy it is to go back to "living fat".
I know I should feel guilty and I am usually the person who feels very guilty about eating junk on a diet but I do not. I had fun this afternoon! It just concerns me that the most fun I have had in weeks had food at its center.