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Saturday, September 05, 2009

Holy cow, I see I joined at the end of May with such good intentions and here it is the first week of September and I have done nothing. I had such high hopes this time, I thought I was really going to do it with the help of this site. I do great for a few weeks and then BAM, something comes up and I get side tracked and then off I go on a spree!

I am still down a tiny bit from when I started so I guess I should be glad I haven't gained, but I am sooooo disappointed in myself. If I had just stuck with it and lost 2 pounds a week, I would be down 25 pounds by now. What is wrong with me? I guess some of it is a pity party because my knees are so bad and I can't exercise like I used to, but I am tired of making excuses ! If I actually got some of this weight off, maybe my kness wouldn't hurt so bad.

Anyway, here I am yet again, hoping that this time will be the last time. I am trying to have a good attitude, but I think I am just depressed and extremely mad at myself right now. I stink! Thanks for listening!

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CRAFTYAT62
Thanks everyone, I needed that! sniff sniff
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AGPLCANDLELADY
You are back! That is the first step in starting over, and feeling better about yourself. Don't beat yourself up.

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MIMISCHENK
You are back. That is what is important. Keep checking in. You have a lot of people who understand and are rooting for you.

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KOOCH4
Quit beating yourself up ....
Your still here and your trying, thats the most important thing, give yourself a pat on the back for that.
It just takes time , you can do it .....
You know what you have to do .
I have a lot of back pain and just force myself to try to think positive , I know what your going through with the knee pain.
I wish you the best, it won,t be easy, and we all understand.
Hang in there , it will get better!
Thanks for sharing....
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GEORGECAB
Though I'm sorry to read how down you are on your situation, I'm glad that you wrote about it, because I can totally identify. I could have written this post myself! I'll make you a deal. I will put in my best effort and make it work this time, if you will too. Let's get the best of this knee pain, once and for all!
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POP-POP
Hello friend! Please don't be discouraged! I have been with SP for over 1 1/2 yrs. and I still battle the same 5 lbs. I have lost 25 lbs. and know I will lose more,but,it is taking me longer than I wanted!
God and Spark People are teaching me patience!
Hugs,Mona

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CD4515830
LOL!!!!
This has been a real weird summer for me, too!
I've been walking and tracking, but I'm grateful for just maintaining my first 20 pounds from last spring.
Anyway, happy to see your new blog and have you back on the radar!

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RENA1965
Just take one thing at a time, if you can purchase a leaner cut of meat than you usually do one step to healthier. If you can find a healthier subsitute for other things you can't do without start here.. If you use sweetner instead of sugar good start..
Try the one step healthier and keep to one plate of food, then work on the next detail. Sometimes a project can be so huge it is overkill, break it down to feeling better within yourself and when you feel success again, just keep working like that old turtle as it is a "life" style change there are no time limits..
Make food you like just make it leaner.. I couldn't do a internet site alone, I go to a weight watchers concept as need face to face support and committment to keep me on track. If one way isn't working try more than one thing at a time. I also went to conversation therapy to find out exactly what in my ego was eating at me to make me over eat..
I found out I suffer ADHD this sensory condition is usually very hard for the suffer to explain to a doctor. We are normal people whom have a hard time keeping thoughts and feeling together. When I was given some mastering skills from within to fight with myself I got more success with controling my feelings and eating..
Good luck and never give up just use your stubborn and try another method or more than one at once..
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Comment edited on: 9/5/2009 10:33:59 AM
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RENA1965
Just take one thing at a time, if you can purchase a leaner cut of meat than you usually do one step to healthier. If you can find a healthier subsitute for other things you can't do without start here.. If you use sweetner instead of sugar good start..
Try the one step healthier and keep to one plate of food, then work on the next detail. Sometimes a project can be so huge it is overkill, break it down to feeling better within yourself and when you feel success again, just keep working like that old turtle as it is a "life" style change there are no time limits..
Make food you like just make it leaner.. I couldn't do a internet site alone, I go to a weight watchers concept as need face to face support and committment to keep me on track. If one way isn't working try more than one thing at a time. I also went to conversation therapy to find out exactly what in my ego was eating at me to make me over eat..
I found out I suffer ADHD this sensory condition is usually very hard for the suffer to explain to a doctor. We are normal people whom have a hard time keeping thoughts and feeling together. When I was given some mastering skills from within to fight with myself I got more success with controling my feelings and eating..
Good luck and never give just use your stubborn and try another method or more than one at once..
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DIVAGIRL655
Don't be so hard on yourself. Like you said your weight is down a little bit from where you started. That is a start! Try switching up your exercise to give your body a boost. I lost 20 lbs with the treadmill then hit a plateau. It went for 2 months then I started alternating treadmill with an exercise dvd and strengh training and it started coming off again. I had problems with my knees also. Work on strenghening the muscles that support the knees and be sure to wear correct shoes and they will eventually get better. Don't give up! You can do it!!!
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