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Me in the Rear View Mirror?

Thursday, September 03, 2009

I was setting at a stop light Tuesday and I saw “myself” in the rear view mirror. No, it wasn’t me looking back but the person in the car behind me that could have easily been me over 3 years ago.

I glanced in the mirror and there was a very large lady in a blue Bonneville right behind me. I used to own a blue Bonneville. She easily filled over ½ of the front seat. She had blonde hair that was short and permed with large sunglasses covering her round face. She didn’t look like a very happy person.

I did a double take then actually kind of stared because that had to be me a few years ago. She looked so similar to the old me it was downright spooky; not just the size but the entire picture.

It’s something that has stuck with me and as many things do made me reflect on the many changes in my life. I constantly struggle now to keep the weight off. A few pounds here and there bothers me but I still wear the same clothes and always make sure to try and eat healthy and walk those extra steps.

I guess the thing that puzzles me the most is where I found that “spark” to make the change. I rarely think about how different my life would have been if I’d make that change sooner but that thought crept in to my mind as well.

I hope I never forget where I came from but I hope when I see myself in the mirror it’s never the old me looking back.

Strange thing is typing up this blog made me realize I missed one of the biggest days of my life on Tuesday – the day I saw that lady. That was my third year anniversary of starting my diet. On that day I only hoped I would lose enough weight to take the burden off my heart and help reduce my high blood pressure. I never, ever believe I would get to where I am now.

Life continues to be good.
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  • GIVEUP30
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    3516 days ago
    Congratulations on being MOD! Thank you for your inspiring story and blogs.
    Angel blessings!
    3928 days ago
  • STEFFI264
    You made it to inspirational!
    I am so proud of you ... I hope you are surviving the bitter cold
    we are getting some cold air here
    it is going down to 43 degrees for our low tomorrow...Just...
    thought you might need a good laugh at our expense!
    4232 days ago
    You inspired me so much when I saw you today as the Motivator of the day. Just think 1/2 of you gone forever. Then I had to read a blog of yours.
    You look absolutely great. God bless you.
    4233 days ago
    What a great story. You are an inspiration.
    4233 days ago
    Congrats on a job well done. Here's to you better health!!!!
    4233 days ago
  • DEUCE119
    Great blog! Congrats on reaching your goal. I have just passed one of mine and that was to get below 200 and I have done that. Now with reading what you have written here and on your page , I know that this isn't my last goal. I once was having problems with my hair & couldn't figure out why it looked different. One day I was looking in the mirror and realized it wasn't my hair but the face that it surrounded that had changed. It had gotten so fat. It took me having cancer & back surgery to finally motivate me but here I am and I am so glad to be here on Spark with so many wonderfully motivating people like yourself! emoticon
    4234 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/20/2009 7:35:34 AM
  • STEFFI264
    this was such a good blog
    I keep looking for the next one
    I guess with work you are busier and more tired.
    I miss your writing

    4296 days ago
  • STEFFI264
    Dear Marcy, I see that person everywhere I go.
    She is at my job, at my supermarket , at my sinagogue etc.
    I try to be open about recovering from this compulsive illness and near death experience so that others can join SP and get help too.

    I am still amazed when people say things like , you're thin or you have never had this problem.
    I think they can see the girl in the mirror too, but I am wrong. All they see is what is left of me
    4306 days ago
    It is weird when we see our "twin", and so awesome that it was the anniversary of your decision. Sounds like a God thing!! I'm so glad that you made that decision!!
    4308 days ago
    You, me, all of us here on SP might at one time finally get to the place were we look back and see something like that in the "rear view mirror" or "passing a store front and peering inside" or anywhere and I pray we all find the success you have achieved.

    You continue to be my motivation and inspiration on this weight loss journey.

    YOU TOTALLY ROCK! And it is because of your determination to continue on this path of healthiness you have found that your inspiration inspires us all.

    Karla emoticon
    4310 days ago
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