Tuesday, July 28, 2009
I joined in the summer of 2006/2007, and I've lost a few pounds. I have lost inches around my middle. Right now, I'm exiting most of my teams.
I'm working on the food,, trying to buy it right. I found that on my food pantry diet, some of the food is horrible. And there is the lack of fresh fruits and veggies. Yesterday, I bought some tomatoes and potatoes, and a few peaches, and a couple of limes, and some protein.
And I bought an ice cream freeze and I walked the town square late evening and sat on the park bench.
I heard on talk radio from a dj/minister that heaven is full of people who God has forgiven and hell is full of people who wouldn't/couldn't forgive themselves. Ok, that's for me. So yesterday I spent most of the day forgiving myself, or at least saying so, because I'm not sure what the act of forgiving is. But I at least smiled as I verbalized forgiving myself for not losing more weight at Sparks, for having a messy house, for not being a good conversationalist, for being lousy at cleaning up a gallon of orange juice that dropped in the cooler, for not speaking up for myself, for not having success at finding a better job, for wishing I had different direction, for not having the home that I want, for being told that if something doesn't work, then change it--only not knowing what to change.