Saturday, July 25, 2009
I am getting ready to go back to school and further my own education. I start in August. I'm nervous and happy to be doing this. That means that everyone in my household will be in school starting in September. I don't want to be viewed as the fat or unhealthy mom. My kids go to a charter school and some of the parents there are very snooty. I saw the way that they looked at me last year and heard some of the comments that their kids would say to mine. I want this year to be different.
My son and I were at the mall last weekend and a woman all most hit us in the parking lot. When she swerved around us she yelled at me cursing and saying don't worry I wasn't gonna hit you, I saw you, it's hard to miss you. My son asked me what she had meant. I said that I wasn't one hundred percent sure but that she was probably referring to my weight. That got me to thinking about the way other people view me.
I'm not really a vain person but we all like to look good. It's those type of people that judge a person souly on what they look like that will never get to truly know me. I work at a gas station. I have several regular customers that can come in, in a bad mood and a simple smile and a listening ear is all they need to turn their day around. I try my best to project good energy to other people. So no I don't want to be viewed as being fat and unhealthy but if that is how people look at me then they aren't getting the whole picture.
I am remotivated to losing this weight and truly getting healthy. One day at a time and one step at a time. As they say slow and steady wins the race. So here I go at turtle speed. The weight is finally starting to come off at that slow but steady rate. This makes me a happier person and I hope that is what people will start seeing.