Im back and serious about losing weight! Here is why!

HI all! Oh how I have missed the friendship and comradarie of this site! I have checked in when I could but it isnt the same without helping with the team! So I am back and hoping to be able to find enough time to assist as a leader again!

I am so serious about losing weight now,more than ever before! I was hospitalized on the eve of my birthday recently! What a mess! My ankle and foot were so swollen that I couldnt bend my toes and it looked about 2 - 3 times the size of the other foot! Turns out,I have been having all kinds of warning signs for the last few years that I was avoiding and I was thinking that it was "just the norm "for my feet to be swollen like that due to water retention ,varicose veins and excessive weight on my small body frame! I really had convinced myself that how bad I was feeling was normal for me and therefore I did nothing to fix it! High blood pressure was caused by all of this as well and Though I was on meds, I did nothing else to take care of myself. All of this caused my kidneys to work extra hard to try and rid my body of the excess water that I was retaining and I peed a lot!(but didnt tell the doctor) Last week I got a scare because I thought that due to all of this my kidneys were actually failing!!!! I couldnt pee and that wasnt normal for me!That combined with the swelling are what sent me to hospital! I was lucky,I caught things in time and my body is still functioning reasonably well as it should! I am going to need a diuretic for a while but seriously that it far better than the possibility of losing my kidney function!

Ladies and gents...........99.9 percent of my problems were related to the fact that my small body frame just annot handle the added work it has to do because of my obesity!( I am a tiny person beneath this weight)The doctor said if I lose weight,my blood pressure will go down,my knees will hold up better,my body wont retain fluid so badly and thus my kidneys wont have to work so hard! Etc..etc...etc....Imagine if I needed a kidney transplant or worse and my kids could say......if only mom had lost the weight!I dont want that to be what is said or how I live! I realised sitting there in the hospital that I spend sooooo much time taking care of everyone else but I continue over and over to NOT TAKE CARE OF MYSELF! How can I be any good to those people I claim to care so much for if I dont take care of me!!! This is truly it folks.....Ive said it amny times and failed but I have to do this now....once and for all I have to put my own health as a priority and stop filling my body with garbage foods that do nothing for me but fill my belly with empty calories! I am going to do whatever it takes to make myself excersise on a daily basis!A short walk,a dance,some sit ups,something,anything ,every day! I will not die too young and due to circumstances that I could have controlled! Enough is enough and ..........my hope and prayer is that for those of you that might still be struggling with this!..................stop making excuses for yourself and get in in to your mind that it is dangerous to our own health to be overweight! Especially if we are excessively overweight! Decide right now....today ....that you are gonna stick with this once and for all! Its the only way! We need to get healthy and take care of ourselves! Best of luck....please for your own health...join me and lets get this done! I love you all! Hugs and blessings Tina