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Monday, June 29, 2009

Hi again. It's been awhile, and wanted to update you a bit. It has been a journey into the most chaotic crap I've ever been through.

I got all the info into the CPA... with one follow-up appt, a week later. I've been so numb, I don't even recall if I have celebrated that goal yet. (5 full years, and amended one year)

So, since my husbands been out of work, and no pending contract, we broke our Lease Purchase agreement on the house we're in and have to walk away from 23k. We don't even get back our $1,000 deposit. Does anyone have a clue how hard it is to find a place to live, to move your family to, when you have NO money, no job, no down payment, no rent? And, just trying to keep on your utilities? It sucks.

We were told to be out by July 1st.

I know that so many other people are going thru the same thing... and my heart goes out to them because it's difficult and scary. I have wanted to sit in the middle of my living room floor and just cry. A part of me wants to feel defeated... martyred and dance a bit with self-pity. I go there for a few minutes and then I remind myself to get up, keep moving and get things done.

So, I've been to Walmart at 11pm or later, picking up boxes... (free) and then back again at 6am, when the stockers get off. We have a few liquor stores that stash boxes in their front windows and I gather them up quickly. I just remind myself to keep moving. I have been packing, keeping my fingers crossed and hoping for a miracle.

I have two days until I'm suppose to be out of here... lock, stock & barrel, and pets.[s]

I don't have a place yet... (I have a place I would love to go to, that's empty).

And, Rod got a phenomenal call today for a possible year contract, starting July 6th.

I guess my reason for sharing such a vulnerable part of my life, is asking for your prayers. Just a 5 second cyber hug of good wishes & blessings will be received with JOY in my heart. I'm just exhausted with all this upheaval and need a bit of help, and that's why I'm asking. And, please keep your fingers crossed for us and I will update you. My DH is to get his confirmation call tomorrow.

It seems I've been traveling a road full of pot-holes for so long, do I dare dream a more smooth and graceful path? I sure hope so!

Keeping my fingers, toes and eyes crossed! emoticon
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  • ~RITA~
    Debbie - I'll lift you and your family up in prayer. Keep us posted on your progress - we're all thinking about you and hoping things turn around soon!
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    God will make you a way where there is no way!

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    4404 days ago
    here is my hug for the day. Hope you get good news soon
    4405 days ago
    I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers Debbie. Here is my cyber hug to you
    emoticon . I applaud your positive spirit--it is amazing.
    4406 days ago
    emoticon Oh hun- I'm crossing every finger I have that your hubby's call brings you good news. My thoughts and prayers are with you- and I just know your path will get smoother soon!
    4407 days ago
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    Prayers and cyberhugs are headed your way. I hope your DH gets a positive response. I'm so sorry that you are going through this.
    4407 days ago
    Please accept my prayers, hugs and just friendship and support. I am the leader here at group hug and you are just the candidate for such support. emoticon
    4407 days ago
    hello friend.
    Prayers and cyber hugs go your way. I have read so many stories and you are not alone. medical physical and money problems are everywhere. I cannot beleive all your problems. Please visit my sparkpage anytime emoticon
    4407 days ago
  • Y_RFAN1
    Keep your head and spirits high...Things will turn around and I pray that you & your husband get through this tough time!!! emoticon

    Just remember that everything happens for a reason...and I am a strong believer that good things happen to good people!!

    Good Luck to you!!
    4407 days ago
    debbie i am sending everything i got your way. all the hugs love encouragement, prayers. i am even sending my guardian angel your way.i hope things work out. let us know what happens. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon please remain strong. emoticon emoticon
    4407 days ago
    Good luck with everything, hope your husband gets the contract, will keep you in our prayers, take care Love Ann.
    4407 days ago
    You are in my prayers...good luck with the contract. You know what they say, if one door closes, another one opens. You might end up in a better place than you are in now. Keep the faith and don't give up. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    4407 days ago
    You keep dreaming! You keep looking! Good luck on landing the job/contract. Hopefully ,that will make all the difference in the world. You will be in our thoughts and in our prayers....... Even in the darkest of hours is a little bit of light. The sun will shine again! emoticon
    4407 days ago
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