The opportunity to heal mind, body and soul.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
I like raw honesty so I will shed a dose of it.. although I am a newby on this site, I have been battling with the desire to lose weight for a very very long time... I've been saying I'll do it, start doing something and then let "life" take it away from me...without any effort on my part to prevent it. That's when I decided to start looking inside to see why I was not able to even give myself an opportunity to get healthy. After analyzing my reasons I decided that I needed more than simply working out and eating healthy. I needed to deal with my mind... the way I was thinking, REALLY thinking about myself, not what I was saying... the way I was handling my emotions, my relationships, my circumstances, my attitude... I came to the conclusion that I was not 'ready" for a physical change yet. I was also wasting unnecessary energy being mad at myself for not being able to "walk the talk". So... sought for help for lots of issues I had never dealt with but where affecting me emotionally very deeply. I am happy to say that the journey has become much better after a month on a Day Program in an incredible christian based organization. I found out and dealt with the root of my issues, dealt with the biggest ones and continue to work with the smaller ones. But I can honestly say that I am a changed person inside and I am ready to become a changed person outside as well. I love myself more than ever, am making the changes (one small goal at a time) needed to accomplish my ultimate goals and have been blessed to find a forum where I can get the support and information necessary to accomplish my goal. I will share bits and pieces of my emotional journey as I walk my physical journey because without the focused time I gave to my inner, healing (mind and soul) I would not be able to take care of my physical healing (body). I am very grateful to those who have been a part of my process so far and most of all, for having acquired the strength I needed to be able to accept the opportunity to change my life.