motivation?? whats that???
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Ok so Im not motivated at all to go back to the gym...like i want to go back but everything else happens and i cant...i was going to go tonite but im just pooped...so i didnt go...so i was going to go tomorrow nite but then i was talking to a friend (who i only get to see when our company flies her here for medical) and shes flying back on fri...so we're doing something tomorrow nite after work...so friday nite is the nite! Im in serious need of a butt whopping! someone who will drag me kicking and screaming and all...but i think its also my anemia...i really have to make a drs apt for blood work...i shouldnt be this tired and my hair is falling out...like fallig out more then normal...so that makes me suspect that somethings not right...it was doing this 2 yrs ago when i thoght i was pregnant (i wasnt but that was when i found out i was anemic) so i really think there is something wrong...gotta call and make an apt...and the good thing is that now im loosing my 2nd job (i babysit for my boss and his wife on both my days off) so now i will either be able to go to apts on my days off...well on one of them...one of my days off is sunday and well just about nothing is open on sundays...plus i may still hvae to babysit on sundays since my boss and his wife both work sundays lol but i will get my day off in the week to make apts! ok so now im rambling!
anwyays to sum it up i have no motivation...well hardly any...the gym sounds like a good idea but i never seem to make it there...and i think there is something wrong with me...my anemia is totally off...and i know anemia is techinially off anyways b/c well u shouldnt hvae low iron but this is more off! lol and now im off to rambling again!
im off to sleep!
nite y'all! lol
oh and was just thinking for those ppl who are now just reading my blog and maybe wondering maybe what else has contributed to my lack of motivation...4 weeks ago i fell at work and tore ligamens in my foot and had a bad sprain...its much better and everyday its getting stronger and stronger...but being on what i call dr imposed house arrest totally killed my wanting to go to the gym...so i hvaent been at ythe gym in 5 weeks (couldnt go the week before b/c of work inventory and cannot workout when i work late b/c then my insomnia is really bad...and well with my anemia problems i need my sleep! lol) so ya thats where my lack of motivation came from!