Why wont I stop making the same move??

Well here I am again.. Depressed and yet blogging. I have tried to make a habit but its not much of a habit if the days are so far apart. I guess today is just something to get things off my mind. First of all, I have a brand new grandson..(Jamari) and yet I still cant seem to make up my mind of what Im doing. I love SP and I seem to lose lbs. here and then when I lose 3 lbs. I get bold and go to WW and hope to lose even more faster..but I am so wrong!!! I actually gain all the lbs back when I go to WW but I will not stop myself from going and doing the same thing over and over again. And this should be enough to make me stop, typing it out and seeing it for myself. Its like Im on drugs. Anyways, its so true, what works for me doesnt work for you and vice versa. I need to just focus!!! FOCUS