Exposure & Honesty
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Its no secret that my ticker hasn't moved recently. In all honesty, its about 5 pounds higher in reality. I'm sorry that I haven't made my success happen yet...sorry for me. However, I want to acknowledge one of the primary problems I've always had: reporting my food intake. It seems so food police-ish to me. I have no problem coming on and telling you that I've faithfully ran 4 times per week for the past 3-4 weeks. Thats SO much easier than telling you about the food I'm eating. But, if I did, you'd know exactly why my ticker is super-glued. The truth is, its easier for me to accept where I am than it is to make a change. And thats horrible. I want to eat clean and get rid of my craving for unhealthy foods...but I havent been willing to do what it takes. I know I have to show myself some discipline and stamina and just get started again, and not worry about perfection. As I glance at the snacks I just bought today, I can tell you that I'm not walking this part of my healthy lifestyle committment with integrity. i'm failing myself. I will be better than this. I will be who I seek to create on the inside..on the outside. Helpful insights are welcome. Thanks for listening.