M y pursuit of happiness
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Let me tell you this Positive Outlook took years to achieve. Even at my lowest weight(118--many Moon's ago, lol) I still felt the need to "cover up" wear oversized clothes, I still felt "fat".
My lowest "maintained" weight has always fluctuated between 125-135. Even after blossoming to a whopping 202 lbs while Pregnant with my first child, I lost 60 of it, then got pregnant again, gained only 40lbs with that child, and I don't have the weight numbers after my 2nd child, but I went from a dress size 16 down to a size 6, after finding out I was pregnant with my 3rd. (You know they say, 3rd times the charm.) Well, thats where I started having problems keeping the weight off. lol
In between there I got a divorce, became a single mom, put myself through nursing school, worked 2 jobs, felt guilty for not being home with my kids, etc etc--you know, all the things that usually cause us to emotionally eat...the pounds packed on. I tried atkins again, i did diet pills, i purged, all these unhealthy things, which in the end, actually only accomplished one thing--more weight gain. Ughh!!
Another thing that has helped me with this Positive outlook, is that I read a book by Doreen Virtue, called Losing your pounds of Pain. I love it. It's a great book. It was like "therapy" for me. Understanding lots of things and teaching me to learn to make Positive Affirmations on a daily basis. It's great. I so highly recommend it.
I have since remarried a wonderfull supportive husband, his daughter now part of our family, this has just been a wonderful journey with him. He loves me unconditionally. And in many ways, has taught me to love myself. I thank God everyday for that blessing.(hubby)