Divorce is devastating! Pray for me.
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
I haven't blogged in a while due to being depressed and unmotivated. In less than a month my Divorce will be final and I am really struggling with this. I miss my husband so very much and do not want this to be the end. I have left him alone so that he can deal with whatever he is going through that caused this rift in our relationship but it has not helped. He is so distant. I finally broke down night before last and called him to tell him that I missed and loved him very much. I just wish it would stop hurting so bad. I had a really bad weekend because all I could think about was him. I have no control over my life right now and it is making it so hard to stay upbeat about my weight loss journey. I have been at a plateau for the last few weeks and bounced around with a couple of pounds and it is making me crazy. I am writing this so that I will get re-focused and start working toward my goal of a happier, healthier me!
I started going to a DIVORCECARES group last Wednesday and I am hoping that it will help me to overcome the feelings that I am going through. He is all I can think about and I am just feeling so much pain over seeing the 18 years that we have vested in our relationship being thrown out the window. I know that the pain will get easier to deal with but right now I am just hurting deeply. Please pray for me to stay focused and take the right paths to moving on with my life.
I love sparks and I am so thankful for the wonderful support that I receive from everyone here. Thank you and please pray for me on December 2nd, as this is when my divorce will be final.