Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Well, I had the Lapband surgery Tuesday June 3rd and it went very well. I have been healing nicely this last week and I only had one setback. I am constantly amazed by what the surgeons can do with just a few small openings. I have six incisions, 5 small ones - about an inch long or less, and 1 long one where the port was installed. They have to place the port between layers of muscle so that it stays in place and doesn't move around. That is the only one that has really hurt at all, the others just itch a bit. I will continue to itch as I heal and hopefully I will eventually not be bothered by the port.
I have had some ups and downs over the last week. I have been really glad that I did the surgery and I have asked myself why I did this stupid thing! I know that I took enough time to really think this through and I am doing it for the right reasons and I am doing as the doctor says and being very careful, but there are still some serious things that come along with this decision that you just can't understand until you have had the surgery. I am SO TIRED of the liquid diet, I could scream. Before the surgery, if I cheated and had something solid, no big deal, but now I can seriously hurt myself! I stupidly ate a spoonful of mashed potatoes on Friday. And I mean a small spoonful of mashed potatoes! But they were kind of dry and sticky, so they hit the top of my band like a glob of paste! I couldn't believe how much that hurt! And then nothing would go down. They just sat there, I drank some water, small sips, until I couldn't get any more to go down, then I vomited the water and a little potato. Then I would drink more water, vomit and repeat. It took me about 4 hrs to finally get the potatoes out of the way! Now this was extreme because I was so close to my surgery and my opening is really small right now with the swelling and everything but that kind of thing can happen anytime I don't chew my food enough, or eat too much food at one time from now on!!! I knew that I was going to have to be really careful and really chew well and everything but you just can't understand how it feels until you are banded. This is so not the easy way out!
I would like to be able to share the physical feelings with anyone who thinks that this is the easy way out! There is no such thing as cheating! I can't cheat, or I will be in pain, me not anyone else. Now this is true of all of us, even when we are not banded, but we don't feel the injury as immediately or as severely as someone who has been banded does. We hurt only ourselves with our cheating or our unhealthy living! Well I hope everyone out there can remember that and think of me with my potatoes whenever you want an easy fix. There is no easy fix! Everything has a cost! What are you willing to pay?
Well, thanks to everyone who has supported and prayed for me. I felt all of your prayers holding me when I went into surgery and while I have been healing. Thank you all!