Back and a little bummed :(
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
As some know, I headed down to see my family in Kentucky for memorial day. We were there about a week. I had my mind made up (or so I thought) before I went that I was going to do good, eat right, exercise, and drink all of my water. Well I don't know where that willpower went because I did the exact opposite. I did get quiet a bit of exercise in but I didn't count my calories and I didn't drink my water. I am holding off a few days before I weigh, because I know I gained alot of water weight on my last trip down. So rather than being overly discouraged from the start I thought I would give myself a few days of being back on the right track.
I have to admit though, I am a little down and a little bummed. I instantly started right where I left off when I got back home, but I just don't seem to have the same drive and motivation as I did have. Even though I still do what I know to do, I feel like I am starting to seperate myself from all the positives and am heading down more the negative path of destructive thoughts that seem to always win at some point or another.
I so want to and will do this this time, for me and my family. I just hope I can conquor these negative emotions before to much longer. I am sure alot of it has to do with the simple fact that I hate leaving my family and know that it will be quiet awhile before I see them again.
Ya'll just might have to slap me or kick me in the butt to keep me going over the next few days.