I'm in England!!
Monday, May 26, 2008
Okay, I'm in the country of the guy I've had a crush on for 2 years...I saw him and he had a different haircut and he looked really handsome so I could hardly talk to him!! When it comes to guys I get soooo silly...I guess there must be a social anxiety that you can get by talking to someone you like? He was right in front of me...He was excited to see me! He asked about my plans and I didn't catch on...I just for the life of me couldn't talk to him.
There's part of me that just wants to tell him that I like him...there's a stronger part that has so much self doubt...And maybe the more sensible part of me tells me that if I can't hardly talk to him then maybe we're not really that great of friends and that I don't have enough there to really show my interest...The thing is I know he's shy like me...With that shyness I don't really think anything will happen...I feel like a teenager with getting so excited about someone but too insecure to do anything...There's all these reasons I can come up with not to tell him...at the same time he's actually in reach...