Half Way Home
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
When I started my journey to better fitness and health, I did so with mixed feelings. All the old questions and concerns came back. Can I do this, will I be successful, how will I manage, on an on to the big one, will I be able to keep it off should I ever reach my goal??? Have I laid them all to rest, no, sometimes they still pop up.
2 ½ months later I have finally understood something that has eluded me all my life. There are no quick fixes, the expression no gain without pain is an undeniable truth. Getting fit and healthy is not easy. There are many times when the task seems to be insurmountable, when it would be so much easier just to say I QUIT!!
But then I look in the mirror and think, I can see my chin clearly, my cheeks are not as round as they used to be. Instead of two rolls I only have one and that one is much smaller and my determination rises to where I think yes I can, I can do this, maybe not as fast as I thought I could but slowly and steadily, day by day, good days and bad days, in the end I will succeed.
Diet pills, those magic diets that promise ten lbs. gone in a week, are still out there. There is a different one almost every week. I am not so prone to believe or try those anymore. If my weight loss and a fitter me is to be permanent, I have to change my way of thinking, living and being. I have to remain focused on where I want to be at the end of my journey.
I will not give up anything forever, I will have that cake or that treat but I will budget for it and include it in my calorie plan for that day. Maybe I will just have a nibble but I will have enough to satisfy me and just by allowing myself, I find that quite often I really do not need or want it.
I am proud of what I have accomplished so far, 22 lbs. and two sizes gone. The realization of how far I have come were evident this weekend when I went to visit my daughter and son-in-law. They live a ways away and so I hadn't seen them since I started. They looked at me and went wow. My daughter said mom I know you have been trying to loose weight but I didn't realize just how much you have lost, you look wonderful. At that point I felt beautiful and ready to go on.
I have learned to be vigilant and read labels and make smarter choices. One can eat out and still stay within the allotted calorie range. Restaurants these days all carry salads even McDonald’s.
This site has certainly helped me to accomplish that. It provided guide lines, friends and laughter all in the same boat as I am. Their support and sharing has helped me over those rough moments, when a quart of ice cream would have been the fix in years gone by. It has provided me with tools to track and monitor everything I do.
I have approx. 12 lbs. to go to the new and slimmer me and I find that I do not need all the tools anymore, they have become ingrained and I make smart choices automatically. This site helped and I will continue to find the support I need here but I guess I have realized that in the end it was I that did it and it was my commitment that has got me as far as I have.
I will continue my journey and hopefully by mid-summer will have accomplished my goal.